This week has been a tad bit off track from the normal cycle of a school week. I am sick. Still am. Slightly.
Have not had track training this entire week.. Legs really really really itching to run! Arrgghh! The gym as well.. My entire body is soft - So irritating! Very uneasy feeling.
Well, as with my illness, i have not been resting as much as I should. In fact, i have been having ice-cream, macdonalds, and even slept at 12plus last night.. Hehe..
Was supposed to go clubbin' tonight! Arrrgghh! I should be styling my hair now, putting on some snug fit clubbin' wear and heading down to town in an hour or so! But instead, i am stuck at home. No worries. At least i did something constructive so far this evening - hung dry the laundry and understood the animations on my geog teacher blog on weather and climate.
I have Educational Blog my too! :D
Sorry. Am a bit shameless here. But also, am practising how to type html links without always referring to my template settings! I am suck a html idiot..
So much work to do over the weekends.
Don't even know where to start. Hmmm.. How about planning first? Right. I'm plan my schedule first.
I have a gig tomorrow at the Ritz; a private charity event I think. Itching to sing and harmonise! Arrrggghh! Darn illness! I can't even reach an E now without using throat voice - OUCH!
Didn't manage to meet Pascal (my friend from Germany) when he was in Singapore. Damm it! I have not seen him for almost 2 years now... And it is all because of college work. Damm the Singapore education system! You want us to be civilised and social and network? Give us the bloody time please.
Speaking of governance:
-- Not sure if i will get sued for this or not, but i'll practice self-censorship anyway --
The dialouge session with the Minister Mentor seemed to me to be one huge joke. Well at least 60% of it was a joke.
1) It prints a bad impression of intellectuals in Singapore. Really.
MM Lee already established the fact that the PAP, like any self respecting political party, would not extend a supporting arm to help the opposition gain power. It's simple logic isn't it? Who would help their "enemy"? And yes, I agree there isn't fair play in Sg politics. The PAP has dominance over most GRCs. Yes, it isn't fair. DEAL WITH IT!
I am especially irritated by the undergrad male who was wearing the Grey Shirt. Just when the intellectual lady undergrad in white brought in a new topic of poltical freedom of speech through podcasting and such, the Grey Shirt Male HAD TO bring the discussion BACK to the lack of fair play! What the hell..
To put it in local terms, "wake up your idea la!"
2) The "If I am arrogant, would I be talking to you?" statement, is indeed arrogance
TONE is everything my dear respect MM Lee. Your tone to that, although somewhat pretty (but otherwise I hate her nasal voice) lady in green is arrogance in it's own right. I think most people were laughing with me when we watched the programme.
And, my dear respectable MM Lee, though you may be the figure head of the PAP so to speak, you are not the only one in PAP dearie. The arrogance exuded is as a party, not a person.
To save my beautiful ass from getting into any trouble, this is not poltical bashing. I have respected MM Lee's contribution and marvel at how him being in his mid 80s can have such a sharp mind and clear line of thought. Truly truly impressive; when my grandfather at exactly the same age he is is asking/telling me to look out for traffic when crossing the road or study hard or any of the few tape-recorded lines he has in his vocab.
Even though the programme may have some flaws, in essence it did help me learn more about SG's poltical situation such as issues on funding for poltical parties.
Haha.. I need to do work tomorrow and on Sunday
I have Qing Ming to attend to on Sunday though. Can bring along my Brave New World to read and do notes. Love love love that book..
- Jho. Supper. Watch Alias. Sleep. Lunch date (perhaps). Gig. Do work!
Friday, April 21, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
Wake up call
Notice that I like to be "awaken" nowadays.. Haha...
Am feeling a bad throat coming up! Just took Pei Pa Gou [cantonese].
Just took a shower. Multi-tasking: drying my hair with a hairdryer and typing with the other. Very tedious to type this way.
College
Hmmm... PW results sucked. I got a 3 for it. Apparently our college did very badly for PW. But according to other sources, SAJC got 6% 1s & 2s! And we got 16%. Hmmm...Madam Mas (my geog tutor) gave a very moving speech. I don't know about my classmates, but I was very motivated by it. -- Stopped drying my hair now, though still very wet. Very irritating to type with one hand! -- I was so motivated that i actually did some research online for Weather & Climate - something i hardly do unless there is a test or some online tutorial. You can check it out at my latest Educational Blog !
To me, the most effective speeches are ones that hits the spot. Madam Mas (and Mrs Naidu previously) managed to do that. "Right now, you guys are failures!" said Madam Mas. Though the infamous Ms Nathan said almost the same thing, "Look in the mirror, that person is stupid!" But it does not seem to have the same effect. Maybe because we treat her like a clown; in a nice humorous kinda way.
And it's true, we are failures right now. But let's see if we have any improvement in the coming weeks. It's only about 200 days to A Levels.. OMG!!! Time flies like anything.
My Block Test grades sucked big time. I really thought that we didn't have enough time to study for it. BUT, NO EXCUSES. We sucked means we sucked.
Mr Chu (HOD of Econs) asked Haoren to tell me that I should not be getting anything less than 65% for Econs right now... Thanks for the pressure Mr Chu, I really am not trying my best lor. There was limited time (at least for me). So I concentrated on studying MCQs to stabilize my concepts. Didn't study for DRQ or Essays. And, whaddaya know? I got 18/20 - Top of lvl for MCQ paper.
I managed to dig this picture out of Jane's friendster:
Damm stupid!
Personal
Am currently seeing "someone special"; Coined this term ambiguously enough not to expect too much and specific enough to have a higher level of intimacy. Explains my happy mood if you guys would notice at times! But if i am in a fowl mood, it's probably due to college stress or procrastination.Did fight with my best friend Joe over some silly thing. Well, at least to me it is silly. I think the situation have simmered.. Hmm..
I have not gone clubbing for a long long time! I need to shake it up a little, this boring (except on my recent saturdays ^_^) life of mine! Ray, let's shake the house down on Friday (I hope)!
Random
Finally the SMU thing is over... I have now much much freer saturdays. Time to get back into the sack! Unless of course I have other STUFF to do.. LOLShare with you a disgusting scene.
Ok. In my opinion, to pick your nose is ok. Very hygenic even. If it is DONE IN THE BATHROOM!So one day I was taking the train home. Standing & leaning against the glass panel on the back door facing the one that is the entrance/exit. And there I saw an Innovian girl, standing by the pole in the middle of the cabin.
Ok. She looks kinda (aka very) nerdy. Had the PE T-shirt tucked into her skirt (which is the longest skirt i have ever seen, BELOW her knee). Carrying some books, like a physics ten year series (tys) and her nerdy bag.
So. She started to pick her nose. Obscenely. Right index finger. In nose. Left dig, right swirl. Up scrape, down scoop. So ok, this is gross enough, thought she would get out a tissue paper and wipe it off. No. She didn't. And went ahead to... Eat The Booger... off her finger.
Nope, there are still some nose crap left on her finger after her nose crap meal. So. Conveniently enough, she flips the corner pages of her Physics tys and plasters the remainder onto the corner of the page.
What a nice experience. I walked (no no no, dashed) out of the train with a squirmish look on my face. I don't know if anyone else saw it (they probably did, it was too much of a spectacle not to), since I was sooo engaged with the whole Nose Picking Saga.
Here's (nose crap) FOOD for (physics tys) Thought.
- Jho. Sleep. College. Track. Gym. Desperate housewives. Grey's Anatomy.
Ne Yo - So Sick ; A very nice song! RnB is back!
P.S. Notice.. I have so much more stuff to say about College compared to Personal. I need a life!
Sunday, April 02, 2006
An (random) Awakening
I don't want to start and say I have not blogged for a long time. (Monosyllabic)
So. I. Will. Move. On. With. My. En,try
Have updated some stuff on my other pages. Revaluated my "desires" section.
Didn't know I had Jake Gyllenhaal - or the fact that he existed- as my blog skin until Brokeback Mountain came into screens. LOL.
So much has happened within this period of absence from the blogging world; so much so that I really don't know where to start. So i'll be random.
Hmmm... Things have been going quite ok reccently. Busy with school work mainly.
Block test results will slowly be revealed piece by piece, paper by paper during the course of this week. Anxious about the results cos' small tests during the previous term did not exactly yield the results i'd hope to get.
College sent two 4X100 m relay teams to the SPH inter school relay competition. Girls got into the finals and came in 5th! Boys - I tell you, it's a miracle! We participated in the competition totally not expecting to get as far as we did.
There were 12 teams that participated in the semi finals. We seriously thought we'd get last place and told ourselves our target is NOT to get last place, at least 2nd last. Oddly and surprizingly enough, we got in 8th, last to qualify for the finals (on the same day)! And before the results for the finals came out, we thought we'd get 8th. Surprizingly, again, we got 6th this time! (Beat 1 team by timing and one team by default cos' of their technical error in passing) Moreover, we managed to clock a personal best timing 1.6 sec faster than the time trial we had in college; finals were 0.19 faster than semis at the competition itself.
That was pretty amazing...
Sound system for TAS Youth Voices and TONE's gig sucked again. We performed at the outdoor amphitheatre area on the 24th of March at the Joint Social Services Centre at Toa Payoh. Bad sound system is really a waste of talent.
Ms Nathan (Subject head Literature) says to girls in another class that she "can't get [my] dimples out of her head... when [I] smile, *makes sound of ecstacy* ". GROSS! Paradox: She now hates my guts! Says my lit grades suck and always asking her for private lessons but never actualising it. Ok Fine. I know it sucks 16 and 18/50 for both essays from the same book isn't exactly an ideal grade. Whatever. She doesn't plough high on my list of things to do. I shall CHUCK her aside.
Hmmm... Lack of motivation. Right. No Flow. Stagnant Academic progress. Don't know what to do. Pro.Cras.Ti.Na.Tion
I'm bored. Lazy to type. Need to do work. Sigh.
I rarely sigh. Hate to sigh. Not efficient use of engery. Now going to help Sergeoh with Lit teaching. Then go for dinner with Grandpa. Then back home to finish work. Then sleep. No time for gym again. Tomorrow's NAPFA test. Hope I get the gold once and for all. Need to sleep early tonight. Oh.. and this weekend is my race for the Singapore Athletic Association on Sunday, 200m. Hope i do well.
- Jho. Empty (yet filled with someone special *_^)
P.S. Listen to Corrine Bailey Rae!
So. I. Will. Move. On. With. My. En,try
Have updated some stuff on my other pages. Revaluated my "desires" section.
Didn't know I had Jake Gyllenhaal - or the fact that he existed- as my blog skin until Brokeback Mountain came into screens. LOL.
So much has happened within this period of absence from the blogging world; so much so that I really don't know where to start. So i'll be random.
Hmmm... Things have been going quite ok reccently. Busy with school work mainly.
Block test results will slowly be revealed piece by piece, paper by paper during the course of this week. Anxious about the results cos' small tests during the previous term did not exactly yield the results i'd hope to get.
College sent two 4X100 m relay teams to the SPH inter school relay competition. Girls got into the finals and came in 5th! Boys - I tell you, it's a miracle! We participated in the competition totally not expecting to get as far as we did.
There were 12 teams that participated in the semi finals. We seriously thought we'd get last place and told ourselves our target is NOT to get last place, at least 2nd last. Oddly and surprizingly enough, we got in 8th, last to qualify for the finals (on the same day)! And before the results for the finals came out, we thought we'd get 8th. Surprizingly, again, we got 6th this time! (Beat 1 team by timing and one team by default cos' of their technical error in passing) Moreover, we managed to clock a personal best timing 1.6 sec faster than the time trial we had in college; finals were 0.19 faster than semis at the competition itself.
That was pretty amazing...
Sound system for TAS Youth Voices and TONE's gig sucked again. We performed at the outdoor amphitheatre area on the 24th of March at the Joint Social Services Centre at Toa Payoh. Bad sound system is really a waste of talent.
Ms Nathan (Subject head Literature) says to girls in another class that she "can't get [my] dimples out of her head... when [I] smile, *makes sound of ecstacy* ". GROSS! Paradox: She now hates my guts! Says my lit grades suck and always asking her for private lessons but never actualising it. Ok Fine. I know it sucks 16 and 18/50 for both essays from the same book isn't exactly an ideal grade. Whatever. She doesn't plough high on my list of things to do. I shall CHUCK her aside.
Hmmm... Lack of motivation. Right. No Flow. Stagnant Academic progress. Don't know what to do. Pro.Cras.Ti.Na.Tion
I'm bored. Lazy to type. Need to do work. Sigh.
I rarely sigh. Hate to sigh. Not efficient use of engery. Now going to help Sergeoh with Lit teaching. Then go for dinner with Grandpa. Then back home to finish work. Then sleep. No time for gym again. Tomorrow's NAPFA test. Hope I get the gold once and for all. Need to sleep early tonight. Oh.. and this weekend is my race for the Singapore Athletic Association on Sunday, 200m. Hope i do well.
- Jho. Empty (yet filled with someone special *_^)
P.S. Listen to Corrine Bailey Rae!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Reminiscent. Flash backs. Evolution. Growth
Has been more than an month since i blogged..
Been sooo busy with Singing, Trips, CCAs and stuff.. Gosh..
But thought this would be a good way to start off year 2006!
My best friend, Sergeoh, went to Hawaii - lucky ass! All the hot hot hot homosapiens! Haha.. He got me this really nice calendar... Filled with sexy Hawaiians! Ooooo.. And a deck of play cards as well - with pictures of.. well.. you can call it porn. LOL! But it is still a lovely lovely gift! Love you joe! Big Hugs....
It is like, you know yourself and see yourself inside out every day, but do not notice all these changes that are continously present. And until my god parents reccently told me that I have grown taller, I wouldn't have realised it myself. And it seems like everyone whom I have not met a long time ago - like my uncle whom came over today - have told me I have grown taller. And it SEEMS that my school pants have "shortened" as well.. Haha.. We'll see when I get measured in school when it re-opens!
Shocked because it is a revelation to me. A sudden realisation. It has been creeping up to me slowly since i was very young. Imaging myself to be like one of those "kor kors" that wear hip clothing, go out with a lot of friends, watch movies and have a great time without parents walking beside them. I also remember, how I envied them having cool wallets that they open, taking money or their ATM cards out, putting them on the counters of departmental stores, supermarkets, CD stores. I also remember how I envy those "Kor Kors" going out to macdonalds or KFC without their parents sitting down, having a meal with their friends.
How these hip teenagers had Pagers! (Don't laugh! It was cool then!) I wanted a Pager sooo much - ya know, those Neon coloured Mp3 player looking gadgets that beeps when ppl sent messages through public phones. Mobile phones weren't such a huge deal then. Wow. Technology sure is quick! Seems like this generation of kids (current adolescents younger than 12) are exposed to a whole new lifestyle as compared to mine. This sounds cliched, but I am only 17, well.. unofficially 18, and I see a big difference.
When I was young, playing at the play ground was still my number 1 activity! Climbing the metal bars that was built like a horse's skeletal structure just downstairs of my house. Playing with the sand. Skateboarding and cycling and of course in-line skating. Playing badminton with my maid and sis then. How I used to run around the house with a plastic sword in my hand, hitting my head on the staircase legdes, table tops, high stools falling on my feet. Pretending to use a towel hooked on to my shirt by a clip as a robe in one of those traditional chinese sword-fighting flicks.
I remembered playing catching and hide-and-sneak in school. How I used to not eat save money and instead, played around. Getting all sweaty and dirty before going back to class. Also remembered how I like to disturb girls in my class.. Tease them.. Taking their stuff and pulling their hair etc etc.. Remembered how running 1.6Km was such a chore to me.. Now it's just running.. haha.. Funny how certain values, figures, scales and the value placed on those figures change as you grow up. Just like currency and money.
2dollars was a huge huge sum to me when I was a kid. How I used to treasure every 10cent coin with my life - after all 20 X 10cents = $2! I remember, once when I was 10, i lost my wallet. In it had $16. I still remember holding back my tears when walking home from school, and ultimately crying like an idiot on my parents' bed against a pillow; remembered how I scrimped and saved every cent and dollar to keep $16 and putting it in my, then velcro wallet (Hey! It was fashionable then!), trying to feel like one of the "kor kors".
And now.. I am one of those "Kor Kors"... It is weird - weird because the memories are so vividly and deeply embedded in my mind as if they were just yesterday..
-Jho 2006. Sleep. Rest. Gym. College.
Been sooo busy with Singing, Trips, CCAs and stuff.. Gosh..
But thought this would be a good way to start off year 2006!
Been out clubbin of course - and for the few times I have been clubbin, somehow, even though I may not be looking to do it purposefully, flirt dancing occurs! Of course that heightens the fun factor and all, but starting to feel quite slutty - especially with my last encounter! It was, how should i put this, much much more seductive and physical... much much much more... LOL.. Worst thing - I was not drunk, at all!
My best friend, Sergeoh, went to Hawaii - lucky ass! All the hot hot hot homosapiens! Haha.. He got me this really nice calendar... Filled with sexy Hawaiians! Ooooo.. And a deck of play cards as well - with pictures of.. well.. you can call it porn. LOL! But it is still a lovely lovely gift! Love you joe! Big Hugs....
I cannot believe it's 2006. Really. I mean, it seems like just yesterday I was in J1! And Now I am (unofficially) 18, and it's my A levels year. Goodness... Time freaking flies! One more year to go and it is National Service. It is really freaky.
It is like, you know yourself and see yourself inside out every day, but do not notice all these changes that are continously present. And until my god parents reccently told me that I have grown taller, I wouldn't have realised it myself. And it seems like everyone whom I have not met a long time ago - like my uncle whom came over today - have told me I have grown taller. And it SEEMS that my school pants have "shortened" as well.. Haha.. We'll see when I get measured in school when it re-opens!
Talking about measuring height, I can still remember my primary school days during height measurements and secondary school days as well... Oh my goodness.. Time just flew pass.. Wow... No wonder they call it the light years. It is freaky, weird, surprizing, astonishing, even scary.
And this year I will turn 18. I can legally smoke, legally drink, legally hit some clubs, legally have sex, legally spit, take drugs, murder, rape.. LOL! I do not think I will be legally considered a Minor anymore as well.. Wow..
I am just in total shock.. serious.
I am just in total shock.. serious.
Shocked because it is a revelation to me. A sudden realisation. It has been creeping up to me slowly since i was very young. Imaging myself to be like one of those "kor kors" that wear hip clothing, go out with a lot of friends, watch movies and have a great time without parents walking beside them. I also remember, how I envied them having cool wallets that they open, taking money or their ATM cards out, putting them on the counters of departmental stores, supermarkets, CD stores. I also remember how I envy those "Kor Kors" going out to macdonalds or KFC without their parents sitting down, having a meal with their friends.
How these hip teenagers had Pagers! (Don't laugh! It was cool then!) I wanted a Pager sooo much - ya know, those Neon coloured Mp3 player looking gadgets that beeps when ppl sent messages through public phones. Mobile phones weren't such a huge deal then. Wow. Technology sure is quick! Seems like this generation of kids (current adolescents younger than 12) are exposed to a whole new lifestyle as compared to mine. This sounds cliched, but I am only 17, well.. unofficially 18, and I see a big difference.
When I was young, playing at the play ground was still my number 1 activity! Climbing the metal bars that was built like a horse's skeletal structure just downstairs of my house. Playing with the sand. Skateboarding and cycling and of course in-line skating. Playing badminton with my maid and sis then. How I used to run around the house with a plastic sword in my hand, hitting my head on the staircase legdes, table tops, high stools falling on my feet. Pretending to use a towel hooked on to my shirt by a clip as a robe in one of those traditional chinese sword-fighting flicks.
I remembered playing catching and hide-and-sneak in school. How I used to not eat save money and instead, played around. Getting all sweaty and dirty before going back to class. Also remembered how I like to disturb girls in my class.. Tease them.. Taking their stuff and pulling their hair etc etc.. Remembered how running 1.6Km was such a chore to me.. Now it's just running.. haha.. Funny how certain values, figures, scales and the value placed on those figures change as you grow up. Just like currency and money.
2dollars was a huge huge sum to me when I was a kid. How I used to treasure every 10cent coin with my life - after all 20 X 10cents = $2! I remember, once when I was 10, i lost my wallet. In it had $16. I still remember holding back my tears when walking home from school, and ultimately crying like an idiot on my parents' bed against a pillow; remembered how I scrimped and saved every cent and dollar to keep $16 and putting it in my, then velcro wallet (Hey! It was fashionable then!), trying to feel like one of the "kor kors".
Silly, but intimately real.
And now.. I am one of those "Kor Kors"... It is weird - weird because the memories are so vividly and deeply embedded in my mind as if they were just yesterday..
A New College year. An intimidating one. It seems like a huge ordeal for the most obvious reason. Don't know how am I going to tackle it as yet... And if my 17 years of living have served me well, especially the past 3, I know for a fact that this year will be even quicker then the rest...
This is scary. Real scary.
-Jho 2006. Sleep. Rest. Gym. College.
Friday, November 18, 2005
Flirt-Dancing. The One.
Flirt Dancing.
verb: to indulge in a seductive dance or movements leading to portray flirtatious gestures of attraction.
-Jeremy Ho's dictionary of the Urban Student
Went to the Madonna: Confessions on the Dancefloor launch party the other night with JunKai. 'twas quite fun - premiere of Madonna's lastest Video "Hung Up" and had a few breakdancers performing to Madonna Remixes.
Managed to catch Desiree - the TV series Heartlander's female lead - and Randall (i think that is his name) doing the emceeing. Desiree is actually only about my height! But she looks sooo tall on TV.
After the launch, the crowd gradually resumed the usual clubbin' ambiance.
I had 4.5 drinks in total - Barcardi Breezer, Margarita, A (damm strong but sweet) Shot in a syringe, Vodka lime, half a Gin. Was, of course, very drunk after that.
Headed for some sleek dancing and flirting on the dancefloor. Was soooo drunk that actually flirt-danced with quite a few people.
I danced and danced and danced so much that suddenly, someone came up to me and started to flirt-dance as well.
The action between us started to to get a tad bit heavy.
We were physically immersed into each other,
The dance floor literally, somehow, left a bigger space for us.
Hands all over each other's bodies,
Butts and hips shook like nobody's business,
There's rubbing,
Some groping etc etc etc etc..
And the worst thing is, that person is a stranger! Totally un-accquaintated.
There was some exchange of compliments and the accent sounds a tad bit hispanic or latin.
I have to admit.. I really really enjoyed the flirt-dance which lasted about a good 20-30mins. Can't really tell, was dead drunk. Yet, I am also guilty and embarrassed about how slutty I can be.. Gosh! I feel like such ass.. An ass that enjoyed being an ass for 20-30mins. Arrrggghhhh!
How can "something so bad feel so good"?
Now I know not to drink so much, I probably can't hold my alcohol very well..
But a part of me wants for this sort of action to happen again the next time I visit a club. I am embarrased by having this thought as well.
I guess I am attractive afterall! Somebody actually wants me physically! Haha! Although, it ain't exactly my type of fantasy, but at least there is one person out there who is interested in me PHYSICALLY only; I bet the flirt-dance ain't about looking for an intellectual exchange with politics and literature involved right? Lol! I am physically attractive! Yeah! 5 points for my Self Esteem!
- Jho. Sleep. Read. Rollerblade in the morning. Gig @ Wisma.
P.S. Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire is actually a very nice movie, much to my surprize..
verb: to indulge in a seductive dance or movements leading to portray flirtatious gestures of attraction.
-Jeremy Ho's dictionary of the Urban Student
Went to the Madonna: Confessions on the Dancefloor launch party the other night with JunKai. 'twas quite fun - premiere of Madonna's lastest Video "Hung Up" and had a few breakdancers performing to Madonna Remixes.
Managed to catch Desiree - the TV series Heartlander's female lead - and Randall (i think that is his name) doing the emceeing. Desiree is actually only about my height! But she looks sooo tall on TV.
After the launch, the crowd gradually resumed the usual clubbin' ambiance.
I had 4.5 drinks in total - Barcardi Breezer, Margarita, A (damm strong but sweet) Shot in a syringe, Vodka lime, half a Gin. Was, of course, very drunk after that.
Headed for some sleek dancing and flirting on the dancefloor. Was soooo drunk that actually flirt-danced with quite a few people.
I danced and danced and danced so much that suddenly, someone came up to me and started to flirt-dance as well.
The action between us started to to get a tad bit heavy.
We were physically immersed into each other,
The dance floor literally, somehow, left a bigger space for us.
Hands all over each other's bodies,
Butts and hips shook like nobody's business,
There's rubbing,
Some groping etc etc etc etc..
And the worst thing is, that person is a stranger! Totally un-accquaintated.
There was some exchange of compliments and the accent sounds a tad bit hispanic or latin.
I have to admit.. I really really enjoyed the flirt-dance which lasted about a good 20-30mins. Can't really tell, was dead drunk. Yet, I am also guilty and embarrassed about how slutty I can be.. Gosh! I feel like such ass.. An ass that enjoyed being an ass for 20-30mins. Arrrggghhhh!
How can "something so bad feel so good"?
Now I know not to drink so much, I probably can't hold my alcohol very well..
But a part of me wants for this sort of action to happen again the next time I visit a club. I am embarrased by having this thought as well.
I guess I am attractive afterall! Somebody actually wants me physically! Haha! Although, it ain't exactly my type of fantasy, but at least there is one person out there who is interested in me PHYSICALLY only; I bet the flirt-dance ain't about looking for an intellectual exchange with politics and literature involved right? Lol! I am physically attractive! Yeah! 5 points for my Self Esteem!
- Jho. Sleep. Read. Rollerblade in the morning. Gig @ Wisma.
P.S. Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire is actually a very nice movie, much to my surprize..
Friday, November 11, 2005
Angstful delivery
If someone is hurting you really badly, should you wait?
Everyone and thing seems to be on the "Irritate Jeremy" or "Hurt Jeremy" streak nowadays..
A potential date, a "best" friend, Promo grades.
But if everyone is doing it, then could it be me instead?
Am I the problem?
Is it wrong to want a friendship so beautiful that nobody can break it? Not even boyfriends, or girlfriends or families or distance or natural disasters? Is that too much of an ideal?
I used to have such friends, or maybe i thought I had them.. I think i still have ONE such friend. Or maybe not.
Maybe I was so deluded that I had the perfect friendship in the past that now, this subjectively "little" flaw is blowing up into a big deal..
Maybe YOU don't want to be my friend anymore. - Ok that previous sentence sounded something a Primary school kid would say - But it can be true.
Maybe it's your family that is preventing you from being my friend? Religion? Your boyfriend?
Or is it me? Am I too judgemental that you don't want me to be included in your life?
Or are you just too horny and jaded that you only concentrate on your boyfriend?
'Cos I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE to believe it is because of "clashing schedules" that we cannot stay in contact. Unless you are that lousy and organiser or lousy a friend. In which, that case, you are not worth it. Not worth my effort.
Even though this may sound egotistical, but I am worth much more than such measly treatment. If this is how you treat your friends. Then i'm sorry to tell you honey, you ain't getting far in this world.
Why should it be weird for you to SMS me to tell me about your life? Why should it be weird for me to do the same? Why would it be weird for us to call and talk nonsense?
But lets be fair to you. Perhaps you have your reasons. If only you would tell me and stop being so wishy washy. And I can decide on whether to concentrate on whether to pursue the friendship or not.. Don't leave me hanging there.. Just tell me the bare facts.
Yes. I have heard of selfless love.. But, this ain't worth my effort.
Bad enough my "best friend" wished me Happy Birthday 30mins before the day ended. I thought you were overseas with reception problems. Or perhaps you were planning a surprize party or even a gathering that you didn't want me to know about. But to no avail. You were with family the entire day. And that is the reason why you wished me at 2330 on 14th oct. A simple sms. I'm not worth the effort?
Send me an email. Send me a letter. Tell me what the fucking problem is... Coz i still REFUSE to believe it is because of schedule clashes that you can't even wish your friend, much more supposed best friend, an early Happy Birthday.
If that is the case, then, really.. I have nothing to say anymore. Really nothing.. Then you are not worth it. Then I have wasted my time with you.
Then I have wasted time telling my dates that I have two best friends that care and love me.
Then I am deluded.
Everyone and thing seems to be on the "Irritate Jeremy" or "Hurt Jeremy" streak nowadays..
A potential date, a "best" friend, Promo grades.
But if everyone is doing it, then could it be me instead?
Am I the problem?
Is it wrong to want a friendship so beautiful that nobody can break it? Not even boyfriends, or girlfriends or families or distance or natural disasters? Is that too much of an ideal?
I used to have such friends, or maybe i thought I had them.. I think i still have ONE such friend. Or maybe not.
Maybe I was so deluded that I had the perfect friendship in the past that now, this subjectively "little" flaw is blowing up into a big deal..
Maybe YOU don't want to be my friend anymore. - Ok that previous sentence sounded something a Primary school kid would say - But it can be true.
Maybe it's your family that is preventing you from being my friend? Religion? Your boyfriend?
Or is it me? Am I too judgemental that you don't want me to be included in your life?
Or are you just too horny and jaded that you only concentrate on your boyfriend?
'Cos I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE to believe it is because of "clashing schedules" that we cannot stay in contact. Unless you are that lousy and organiser or lousy a friend. In which, that case, you are not worth it. Not worth my effort.
Even though this may sound egotistical, but I am worth much more than such measly treatment. If this is how you treat your friends. Then i'm sorry to tell you honey, you ain't getting far in this world.
Why should it be weird for you to SMS me to tell me about your life? Why should it be weird for me to do the same? Why would it be weird for us to call and talk nonsense?
But lets be fair to you. Perhaps you have your reasons. If only you would tell me and stop being so wishy washy. And I can decide on whether to concentrate on whether to pursue the friendship or not.. Don't leave me hanging there.. Just tell me the bare facts.
Yes. I have heard of selfless love.. But, this ain't worth my effort.
Bad enough my "best friend" wished me Happy Birthday 30mins before the day ended. I thought you were overseas with reception problems. Or perhaps you were planning a surprize party or even a gathering that you didn't want me to know about. But to no avail. You were with family the entire day. And that is the reason why you wished me at 2330 on 14th oct. A simple sms. I'm not worth the effort?
Send me an email. Send me a letter. Tell me what the fucking problem is... Coz i still REFUSE to believe it is because of schedule clashes that you can't even wish your friend, much more supposed best friend, an early Happy Birthday.
If that is the case, then, really.. I have nothing to say anymore. Really nothing.. Then you are not worth it. Then I have wasted my time with you.
Then I have wasted time telling my dates that I have two best friends that care and love me.
Then I am deluded.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
SCREW IT!
Fuck it! Fuck it!
Damm Geog.. I can't believe i got a C when I am aiming for an A!
And Econs and Lit, was expecting a D or E yet get B for both! WTF??
And GP - Worst! B bloody 3 la! WTF... No A's at all..
So what if I get promoted? No more S Papers.. No scholarship for me... Great. I have to depend on my parents for money again..
-- 1318Damm Geog.. I can't believe i got a C when I am aiming for an A!
And Econs and Lit, was expecting a D or E yet get B for both! WTF??
And GP - Worst! B bloody 3 la! WTF... No A's at all..
So what if I get promoted? No more S Papers.. No scholarship for me... Great. I have to depend on my parents for money again..
Haha.. I was just ranting in the afternoon. Thought it through. No point to rant also.. Wasted energy only.. Guess i'm just really disappointed with myself. Why did i make such a mistake? Hopefully my summer test is strong enough for geog to pull me up to a B instead of a C. But very unlikely... Oh well.. that's life. You lose some, you gain some..
Normally, i would say "Next time i'll work harder", but this time, I worked sooo hard and get this result. How can i use that cliche again? Oh well.. I'll just do my best and see how A Levels go lor... Can't wait to launch into the 200 DRQ questions Madam Mas gave!
And Mdm Mas, if you're reading this somehow, i'd like to thank you for your effort and time in helping me. Sorry I disappointed you in anyway... Let's just hope my A levels is an A instead of a (surprise surprise!) C for geog.
-Jho. Sleep. WR-ing.
P.S. Now i must watch what i blog about teachers.. Just realised they are humans too and are quite tech savvy! Eeeks!
Saturday, October 15, 2005
14th October 2005
My Birthday
Woke up in the morning with 6 smses.
Mel
Latifah
Richard
Mom
Elsa
Macdonalds - I know... Haha!
And got a call from Da Allan & Nigel! I love you guys! Huggggsss!
Hehehe.. It was actually the call that woke me up, otherwise, I would have slept till 1 or 2pm at least!
And as the day went by, a few more came in. Tonnes on Friendster and MSN. You guys do care afterall! Haha.
But perhaps, not all... But I guess in life, you have to give and take. It's just another day anyway.
Practising the power of ZEN
Now going to have a small celebration with family. Bigger celebration (dinner) will be tomorrow/Sunday with grandpa.
Went to the gym today. Finally... got back into my routine. Gonna run sprints tomorrow. And maybe do some swimming.. Hopefully I will not procrastinate!
Hmmm.. My mouth damm itchy! I know it sounds wrong, but I'm just dying to SING! To Harmonise! Gosh...
Woke up in the morning with 6 smses.
Mel
Latifah
Richard
Mom
Elsa
Macdonalds - I know... Haha!
And got a call from Da Allan & Nigel! I love you guys! Huggggsss!
Hehehe.. It was actually the call that woke me up, otherwise, I would have slept till 1 or 2pm at least!
And as the day went by, a few more came in. Tonnes on Friendster and MSN. You guys do care afterall! Haha.
But perhaps, not all... But I guess in life, you have to give and take. It's just another day anyway.
Practising the power of ZEN
Now going to have a small celebration with family. Bigger celebration (dinner) will be tomorrow/Sunday with grandpa.
Went to the gym today. Finally... got back into my routine. Gonna run sprints tomorrow. And maybe do some swimming.. Hopefully I will not procrastinate!
Hmmm.. My mouth damm itchy! I know it sounds wrong, but I'm just dying to SING! To Harmonise! Gosh...
- 2215
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Just came back from the void deck.
Joe came over and celebrated with my family. Had cake and watched old videos of my family when we were kids.. haha.. laughable hair and fashion sense!
Then we chatted and stuff... Went downstairs, he got ice-cream, i got snickers bar.. Talk about "friendship" and "types of birthday celebrations"... It was nice.
He got me a book! - "How To Think Like Leonardo Da Vinci - Seven Steps to Genius Every Day" Read a chapter.. Very inspirational..
He me a cute coaster that matched my room colour.
And He got me a bookmark, a classy metallic hammer with a small leather strap. ^_^ It was a very cool gift to recieve..
Yanting wrote me a short letter and a small soft toy
Junkai + Chua gave me <>
Sis insisted on buying a CD, so instead of buying Michael Buble - It's Time (which i can get from Joe to burn), I told her to get me Latoya London's album. Yes Latoya has an album out now!! Go get it!
Mom gave me $_____. And Dad bought my colour contacts ^_^
- Jho. Sleep. Track training.
Friday, October 14, 2005
Back from a long hiatus
Sweet
First i would like to thank JunKai for delivering my birthday present. This sweet sweet guy, travelled ALL THE WAY from Serangoon (and straight from school somemore) to Choa Chu Kang just to give me my gift!
He gave me
(1) Chocolate Cake with Banana fruit [Chua's Idea.. thanks!]. And my family's hands were all over it! I had to snatch it away and say it is mine...
(2) a GORGEOUS self made card with GREEN all over! And well-wishes from the members of TONE. It's an absolutely fabulous gift!
Materialism aside, the effort he put into the card and time spent travelling, it's truly touching. Really.
Mid course Exams (a.k.a Promos)
It's not bad.
GP - Worried. Might just get an A2 only or worst, a B3 or B4! Ahhhh!
Economics - This one is a tricky one. Seems like I can get a B or C, but may end up with a D afterall
Geography - Another tricky one. Most probably a B on the maximum
Literature - Worst. Most uncertain. Made bold attempts, thus a little worried. A secured D but a possible C
Birthday
This goes out to those who have wished me a happy birthday so far. Such as Yanting, Mel, JunKai, Jeremy Chua, Da Nigel, Da Allan, Angie.
And to those who didn't, It's my Birthday! Show some love please! Hahhaha.. Kiddin'
Since it's the day that I was born, allow me some space to be a Guru here.
Wise words: ZEN. Block out negativities. People just need to know how to Zen. I'm not asking one to walk away in times of trouble. But thing is, you have to not-fret about things which you have no control. A philosophy i learnt most reccently.
An example? If you have ONE Day left to study for your paper, instead of fretting and constantly thinking how you will be able to cope, just block that out and study. It's a more productive method as compared to constantly fretting and in the end, not able to get anything at all into the head. Rather not fret and absorb 30% of the content than fret and absorb 10% right?
Zen-ing blocks negativities and thus promote organic and healthy productivity of one's soul.
Weird
I feel a little out of place currently. Firstly, October 14 is normally a time ( for 4 years running) for exams for me. I have never had a birthday for 4 years now that doesn't involve a paper the next day. This is the first time this happened in 4 years.
Secondly, the exams are over and I ain;t studying anymore, at least for a few days.. It's a break in the routine. Very weird. I'm not saying i ain't enjoying this freedom though. Just not many people to share it with.
Thirdly, this birthday seems to be just another day. Just a passing cloud. No significance. Hmmm...
Should listen to Natalie Grant - Held. It's an absolutely fabulous song!
Time to pack my room soon! It's in a total mess with books and files everywhere!
Time to get back into the gym routine.
Time to start my Track training again for the finals on 21st.
Time to catch up on my reading.
Time to live a slower paced life again..
-Jho. Sleep. Gym. Birthday.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Sparse Flowers
Misinterpretation is my stance.
People by chance
Or not
Claims my nonchalance.
Maybe they hurt too
But even I do.
Action before thought
And consideration and asking and empathy
Is action without genuine
Love.
Break.
I now have a friend,
Seemingly true, seemingly real, seemingly genuine
But how Do I Know?
Perhaps I'm pessimistic.
My life is falling apart.
How can I not be?
But I think real.
Some think Not.
I'd like to be positive.
He is genuine.
He's real.
Finally.
Maybe it's the opposite gender.
I Don't know.
I rarely say don't know,
though.
Break.
Busy Busy Busy.
List:
Principal's Conference Drama Performance -
The Worst event, Detestable.
Tioman Trip -
Enjoyable yet disrupting.
Major Econs test -
Stressful.
A Cappella Fest -
Bunch of nerves!
I Cannot Wait For This Two Weeks To Be Over!
- Jho. Sleep. College till 6 (darn Drama!).
People by chance
Or not
Claims my nonchalance.
Maybe they hurt too
But even I do.
Action before thought
And consideration and asking and empathy
Is action without genuine
Love.
Break.
I now have a friend,
Seemingly true, seemingly real, seemingly genuine
But how Do I Know?
Perhaps I'm pessimistic.
My life is falling apart.
How can I not be?
But I think real.
Some think Not.
I'd like to be positive.
He is genuine.
He's real.
Finally.
Maybe it's the opposite gender.
I Don't know.
I rarely say don't know,
though.
Break.
Busy Busy Busy.
List:
Principal's Conference Drama Performance -
The Worst event, Detestable.
Tioman Trip -
Enjoyable yet disrupting.
Major Econs test -
Stressful.
A Cappella Fest -
Bunch of nerves!
I Cannot Wait For This Two Weeks To Be Over!
- Jho. Sleep. College till 6 (darn Drama!).
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Thought to Think
Thought.
As pained as can be
Thoughts rummage thru thee.
Seeking solace, and numb, and zen;
A probing ever since then.
Pinkies hooked to represent
The contract of friendship,
trust,
honesty,
care,
empathy,
sympathy,
help,
guidance,
aid; dissappeared, removed, frozen.
'tis the cycle of life?
'tis the pain of mine?
'tis the work of distance?
'tis the work of time?
'tis the... the... work of the... dEVIL?
With soul (or no soul) as black as coal, blessed thee both with apathy and indifference,
Un-valued thy
For thy fortunes.
'tis the self deception of thee both?
'tis my importance lack?
Like my thoughts I have written.
Written.
Led me to think, no,
Write.
Write this poem,
of angst, of anger, of apathy (coming soon). Ah!
Actions done?
No. Not that I see. Not that I will ever see, I THINK.
Haha! Doth thee know how I feel - no, wait - THINK?
When the Sun dies, probably.
Please...
Think.
As pained as can be
Thoughts rummage thru thee.
Seeking solace, and numb, and zen;
A probing ever since then.
Pinkies hooked to represent
The contract of friendship,
trust,
honesty,
care,
empathy,
sympathy,
help,
guidance,
aid; dissappeared, removed, frozen.
'tis the cycle of life?
'tis the pain of mine?
'tis the work of distance?
'tis the work of time?
'tis the... the... work of the... dEVIL?
With soul (or no soul) as black as coal, blessed thee both with apathy and indifference,
Un-valued thy
For thy fortunes.
'tis the self deception of thee both?
'tis my importance lack?
Like my thoughts I have written.
Written.
Led me to think, no,
Write.
Write this poem,
of angst, of anger, of apathy (coming soon). Ah!
Actions done?
No. Not that I see. Not that I will ever see, I THINK.
Haha! Doth thee know how I feel - no, wait - THINK?
When the Sun dies, probably.
Please...
Think.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Random Happenings
Friday 12th August
Swimming lessons in College! Darn cool (and cold)! After the swimming lesson, it's like, a new you for the rest of the day.. No more languidity, totally refreshed!
Watched the upbeat concert too with Chua. Free tix, on behalf of The A Cappella Society. Bought brownies as a form of appreciation to upbeat.
Upbeat was good with their blend and they clash chords beautiful. All of them Classical singers and seem to be able to get funny chords right all the time BUT, when it comes to 'Pop' chords, they are always either flat or sharp! Ironic. Loved their Air on G String and William Tell Overture, especially the soprano solos.
They did badly in their pop songs like Always Be My Baby and I Do though - problem: Rigid voices; too perfect a diction for pop songs (you gotta let it slide for Pop music); the sound is also very "at the top" for soloists and thus ad lib-ing became a real problem (again, too rigid).
Though another paradox,Upbeat is not really very upbeat, but overall good performance taking into consideration their age as a group. I give it 2.5 Stars!
Went to Chinatown food street to have supper with Chua and realised how i do not know Singapore well at all, i was so surprized i'm able to walk from Chinatown food street to Tanjong Pagar road in a few 100 metres. And was just thinking also, what about the general teenage population - yes they know Orchard Road inside out, but who doesn't? - do they know such tricks and places such as chinatown?
Headed to Mox afterwards just for a drink and "soak up in the ambience" [Haha!] and (getting from good to bad) music. Happened to meet Bryan there, as usual on a Friday night again and we chatted for awhile and stuff. Tense karma.. Bad bad..
Saturday 13th August
Woke up late, had to go for this tea session with a Minister of Parliament (i think) and another lady, both from Feedback Society of the government. Quite an Insighful chat session among JCs, Polys, ITEs, Universities - every institution sends 2 representatives.
I have to say something. I strongly DO NOT believe that ITE students are STUPID, and firmly stand by my view point that they have much to offer in terms of more technical stuff, or perhaps they lack guidance or motivation when young.
BUT, BUT, BUT, BUT! When they were at the tea session, the representative were totally disrespectful and irritating. Sitting behind me, they were, though in hushed tones, whispering and chatting among themselves. What is worst, one guy was actually talking on the phone! I mean, have some decency, wana talk on the phone, GET OUT OF THE BLOODY ROOM!
It's ok if they are not interested in current affairs, they probably are not induced or required to do so in ITEs, but respect is still essential. If you would have two very respectful representatives, i'd actually say "WOW"... I mean, the social stigma against them is existing already, so if they were to behave properly, i'd definitely show more respect and know what they are capable of doing.
But with that behaviour, it adds on to the stigma ya know? I don't wana think this way, but yes, i am feeling this way after yesterday's incident.
Went to the National Library. It's HUGE! 13 storeys huge!
Then went to watch a movie alone again, needed some alone time to refresh my mind. Watched Bewitched.. It was funny! And romantic, very much like the old classic. Nicole kidman was stunning as usual and Will Ferrell, i love his eyes - but he looks kinda dorky!
- Jho. Rehearsal. Library research. Dinner
Swimming lessons in College! Darn cool (and cold)! After the swimming lesson, it's like, a new you for the rest of the day.. No more languidity, totally refreshed!
Watched the upbeat concert too with Chua. Free tix, on behalf of The A Cappella Society. Bought brownies as a form of appreciation to upbeat.
Upbeat was good with their blend and they clash chords beautiful. All of them Classical singers and seem to be able to get funny chords right all the time BUT, when it comes to 'Pop' chords, they are always either flat or sharp! Ironic. Loved their Air on G String and William Tell Overture, especially the soprano solos.
They did badly in their pop songs like Always Be My Baby and I Do though - problem: Rigid voices; too perfect a diction for pop songs (you gotta let it slide for Pop music); the sound is also very "at the top" for soloists and thus ad lib-ing became a real problem (again, too rigid).
Though another paradox,Upbeat is not really very upbeat, but overall good performance taking into consideration their age as a group. I give it 2.5 Stars!
Went to Chinatown food street to have supper with Chua and realised how i do not know Singapore well at all, i was so surprized i'm able to walk from Chinatown food street to Tanjong Pagar road in a few 100 metres. And was just thinking also, what about the general teenage population - yes they know Orchard Road inside out, but who doesn't? - do they know such tricks and places such as chinatown?
Headed to Mox afterwards just for a drink and "soak up in the ambience" [Haha!] and (getting from good to bad) music. Happened to meet Bryan there, as usual on a Friday night again and we chatted for awhile and stuff. Tense karma.. Bad bad..
Saturday 13th August
Woke up late, had to go for this tea session with a Minister of Parliament (i think) and another lady, both from Feedback Society of the government. Quite an Insighful chat session among JCs, Polys, ITEs, Universities - every institution sends 2 representatives.
I have to say something. I strongly DO NOT believe that ITE students are STUPID, and firmly stand by my view point that they have much to offer in terms of more technical stuff, or perhaps they lack guidance or motivation when young.
BUT, BUT, BUT, BUT! When they were at the tea session, the representative were totally disrespectful and irritating. Sitting behind me, they were, though in hushed tones, whispering and chatting among themselves. What is worst, one guy was actually talking on the phone! I mean, have some decency, wana talk on the phone, GET OUT OF THE BLOODY ROOM!
It's ok if they are not interested in current affairs, they probably are not induced or required to do so in ITEs, but respect is still essential. If you would have two very respectful representatives, i'd actually say "WOW"... I mean, the social stigma against them is existing already, so if they were to behave properly, i'd definitely show more respect and know what they are capable of doing.
But with that behaviour, it adds on to the stigma ya know? I don't wana think this way, but yes, i am feeling this way after yesterday's incident.
Went to the National Library. It's HUGE! 13 storeys huge!
Then went to watch a movie alone again, needed some alone time to refresh my mind. Watched Bewitched.. It was funny! And romantic, very much like the old classic. Nicole kidman was stunning as usual and Will Ferrell, i love his eyes - but he looks kinda dorky!
- Jho. Rehearsal. Library research. Dinner
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
National Day - Not so bad afterall!
Woke up.
I had lunch and then head to the gym and swam abit after - trying to get the V-Shaped torso!
Watched the National day Parade.
Not very interesting. The acts were pretty boring as compared to the previous year's... Hmmm... 40 years. On the patriotic side, i am proud of Singapore, to be able to attain World City 1st tier status in less than a decade of development, to be one of the world's major cities next to Frankfurt, Milan, Sydney etc. I love singapore and will never give up my citizenship!! ^_^
We didn't gather..
as a group of close friends to watch the NDP like we used to every year since our little NDP Choir experience. I'd hope for it to be a tradition, to be something we do as friends, like most close group of friends who have a certain culture, i have hoped that that was it; watching ndp. Hmmm... Maybe my group's culture is being ignorant. I'm not being sarcastic. Just a thought.
Had a little discussion with Dada Nigel this afternoon.
About friendship. As the wise Sage he always was and will be - he didn't provide me with answers but generated more questions. LOL! I'm not being sarcastic (again)... But the questions were constructive.
I came up with two answers.
1) Best Friends -- who have the perception that being best friends means that people can be apart and not put in that much effort to keep the friendship going, but when meeting once in awhile, will be able to ignite the flames just like that and be as happy as ever. In other words, effort is not needed to keep the friendship going.
2) Best Friends -- who have the perception that people have to do little things here and there to keep the friendship on going. Thus, they need to put in effort (minimal or otherwise) to maintain the friendship. In other words, effort is needed to stay friends.
I belong to the latter, not to say the former is incorrect. But I PERSONALLY BELIEVE that that is how a friendship should work. To TRY and to put in slighest of efforts to keep it flowing.
I mean, why can't someone just send a simple sms to say "how are you doing?" to their best friends when they can send long messages to people who are supposedly not that close?
And, why can't people try to rectify problematic situations with friendships when they know that there is a prominent problem and yet wait for the other parties to take action? Is that true friendship?
I came up with 2 conclusions.
A) They don't have the EQ or social intelligence or experience with such problems that they are absolutely clueless as to what to do.
B) They just don't bother.
National Day was not that lonely...
afterall. Went out with Joe for supper and chatted from 9plus till 0030. Very intellectual chat we had. Very personal and heart to heart also i guess.
That was the highlight of my day. When i thought i was gonna be lonely, someone was there. And the best thing was, I didn't have to ask! Sometimes i feel that when it comes to emotions, guys have less EGO than the opposite sex. Ironic according to social perspectives huh...
Are people subjugated to their fate? Or do they have to ardently fight for their wants? But what if they are tired of fighting? What if they have fought a long battle and want to take defense instead? Are people born fighters and MUST fight all the time? Can leaders follow sometimes? Are leaders suppose to initiate all the time? Do followers have a voice? Can they speak? Do they want to speak? If leaders don't lead, will followers just sit back and not follow? Or will they initate and help the leaders?
Who helps the leader when he is down? Who? Who? Who?
-Jho. Sleep. PW. Gym. Swim. Read.
I had lunch and then head to the gym and swam abit after - trying to get the V-Shaped torso!
Watched the National day Parade.
Not very interesting. The acts were pretty boring as compared to the previous year's... Hmmm... 40 years. On the patriotic side, i am proud of Singapore, to be able to attain World City 1st tier status in less than a decade of development, to be one of the world's major cities next to Frankfurt, Milan, Sydney etc. I love singapore and will never give up my citizenship!! ^_^
We didn't gather..
as a group of close friends to watch the NDP like we used to every year since our little NDP Choir experience. I'd hope for it to be a tradition, to be something we do as friends, like most close group of friends who have a certain culture, i have hoped that that was it; watching ndp. Hmmm... Maybe my group's culture is being ignorant. I'm not being sarcastic. Just a thought.
Had a little discussion with Dada Nigel this afternoon.
About friendship. As the wise Sage he always was and will be - he didn't provide me with answers but generated more questions. LOL! I'm not being sarcastic (again)... But the questions were constructive.
I came up with two answers.
1) Best Friends -- who have the perception that being best friends means that people can be apart and not put in that much effort to keep the friendship going, but when meeting once in awhile, will be able to ignite the flames just like that and be as happy as ever. In other words, effort is not needed to keep the friendship going.
2) Best Friends -- who have the perception that people have to do little things here and there to keep the friendship on going. Thus, they need to put in effort (minimal or otherwise) to maintain the friendship. In other words, effort is needed to stay friends.
I belong to the latter, not to say the former is incorrect. But I PERSONALLY BELIEVE that that is how a friendship should work. To TRY and to put in slighest of efforts to keep it flowing.
I mean, why can't someone just send a simple sms to say "how are you doing?" to their best friends when they can send long messages to people who are supposedly not that close?
And, why can't people try to rectify problematic situations with friendships when they know that there is a prominent problem and yet wait for the other parties to take action? Is that true friendship?
I came up with 2 conclusions.
A) They don't have the EQ or social intelligence or experience with such problems that they are absolutely clueless as to what to do.
B) They just don't bother.
National Day was not that lonely...
afterall. Went out with Joe for supper and chatted from 9plus till 0030. Very intellectual chat we had. Very personal and heart to heart also i guess.
That was the highlight of my day. When i thought i was gonna be lonely, someone was there. And the best thing was, I didn't have to ask! Sometimes i feel that when it comes to emotions, guys have less EGO than the opposite sex. Ironic according to social perspectives huh...
Are people subjugated to their fate? Or do they have to ardently fight for their wants? But what if they are tired of fighting? What if they have fought a long battle and want to take defense instead? Are people born fighters and MUST fight all the time? Can leaders follow sometimes? Are leaders suppose to initiate all the time? Do followers have a voice? Can they speak? Do they want to speak? If leaders don't lead, will followers just sit back and not follow? Or will they initate and help the leaders?
Who helps the leader when he is down? Who? Who? Who?
-Jho. Sleep. PW. Gym. Swim. Read.
Monday, August 08, 2005
Naked
Wow.. It's been almost two months. Gosh.
Just finished my Literature essay on the book "The Guide" by R.K. Narayan.
Felt like blogging my feelings.
- "Naked" by Spice Girls (Their first album) playing on my notebook -
It's a new notebook.. Hp Pavillion Entertainment Notebook PC. Quite cool. Never had a notebook before and realised it's darn useful and mobile! I can do work any where, so efficient!
Just watched Macbeth at the DBS Arts centre: Home of SRT. Quite cool. Imagine, memorising lines and lines of Shakspeare! And we students can't even quote from the text during an exam. Haha.
There's college tomorrow. First they tell us we are celebrating for an hour, i thought "hey! I can go back home by 9!" then they tell us after the celebration is a full college hours. Ok fine. I "ren".
Now my friends tell me we have extra Econs lecture remedial till 6:15pm. Ok. Innova JC is gonna top the JC cohort soon at this rate. LOL! Wishful thinking on my part...
I don't know what is wrong with this world. It always seems like you cannot have both, it's always either or. If i do not have dates AT ALL, my ("best") friends are closer to me, but if i have a few dates popping out here and there, they seem so distant. Although it's a non sequitor (no relevance), but it always seems to work out that way.. Why?
I remember Ms Beh, my upper sec form teacher said to us, "It's your secondary school friends that stay with you for life"... How true is that? I really wonder. I mean seriously, in my current state, i guess not.
I have to admit, it's partly my fault for being oversensitive. But can you blame me? Ok, i'll stop ranting. I just needed to get it out of my system. Being indifferent hurts, not caring hurts, but i think that's the best way for now - since trying too hard and getting rejected hurts much much more.
I ardently believe in balance. Everything needs to have a balance.
Nigel and Allan visited. Had a really nice time! Though my puntuality is a major issue and will probably be awhile before i learn my lesson. I probably need a huge jolt to truly learn lessons - like my English Grade in the "O" Levels.
Maybe i should go get some serious reflection. Are my priorities right? I don't know.
I have always had answers to other people's problems, but never my own. Gosh...
I have always had answers to other people's problems, but never my own. Gosh...
I'm feeling naked. Like i have no flesh. No tangibility. I'm feeling numb. Is that what Jeremy Ho has become? I could care less for incompetence, probably that is why i feel so small all the time; since i pitch myself against the best or the better ALL the time.
But
It's not just that. It's about feeling wholesome. I thought i got over my teenage insecurities. Hmmmm.... Or maybe i'm again a late bloomer and here comes my insercurities for real. I would not call them insecurities though. I'm perfectly sercure, just unsure.
I miss AJ.. Had sooo much fun and learnt so much. Sad that the good teachers are leaving though. Well, IJ is getting more beautiful by the day. I can't wait to use the facilities!
Maybe I should get a larger circle of friends. Then we can go clubbin', dancin' etc etc. A close knit group of friends may not be such a boon afterall.
Ok. National Day is here. Singapore's 40th birthday. Ya know, i'd never give up my citizenship for any country in the world. I guess i'm just very "kampong"... I like singapore. I like that i can walk at the void decks of HDB flats barefooted. Take a walk down the streets in the night and not get mugged.
Brb. I'll go to the toilet.
Yup! I love my country.
Anyways. There's an upcoming A Cappella concert!
A Cappella Fest 2005
8th September
7:30pm
Kallang Theatre
Tickets $16 - Students, $24/$26 Adults (I Think)
My A Cappella group TONE will be performing about 3 songs! Do come support the local groups! I promise it will be a sensational evening of songs!
Sleep time!
Jho - Sleep. College. National Day "break".
Monday, June 20, 2005
Wow! 3 Days Events
Wow.. Lots of thing happened this weekend and today!
Father's day celebration.
Date - Hot body. Intellectual conversations. Jokes. Teasing. Compliments. Nice hands *wink wink*! Haha! Quite the charmer. It ended well, though the goodbye was slightly abrupt.
Met up with my childhood friend, Sharina and her mom (also my mom's childhood friend). My Mom knew her Mom (Salma) since THEY WERE 6 YEARS OLD, NEIGHBOURS. How cool is that!? And they still keep in contact. I knew Sharina since I was a baby, and we've basically played together in our cribs la! Haha.. She was just born 1 month after i was born, our mothers were pregnant at the same time! Haha! Now where can you find such a friend? It's bloody rare.
She and her mom left for the states to be with her dad 8-9 years ago.
She's a pretty, young lady, elegant, knows her values even though she's half-caucasian (no offense to any caucasians! haha!). Very polite and respectful. Nice girl.
Both our mom's were (jokingly - i hope) suggesting they be in-laws since we were babies! LOL! Not gonna happen!
We met up and after a few 30mins we went to a restaurant for lunch and stuff. Had to follow our parents around for some shopping and had some small talk; trying to strike up good conversations and stuff. Then our parents ditched us and asked us to go walk on our own, so i brought her to teenage-shopping paradise - The Heeren. Showed her around with my sister tagging along. Had some nice conversations and were very comfortable with each other, almost like we've known each other for a long time (we have, literally. but that's besides the point. Haha!). It's like we just picked up where we left off. Real cool.
- Jho. Sleep. Stressful gig. Swim meet. (Noticed i did not talk about school or work? Yeah!)
Saturday.
Rehearsals.Father's day celebration.
Sunday.
Gig - Not bad! A little lacking in terms of sound equipment and attitude though. Audience was quite receptive. But it's typical performance la. I have to admit, we really grew as performers. Really... It's very pleasant to see.Date - Hot body. Intellectual conversations. Jokes. Teasing. Compliments. Nice hands *wink wink*! Haha! Quite the charmer. It ended well, though the goodbye was slightly abrupt.
Monday (Today).
Rehearsals in the morn - Ok, I admit. I'm unused to rehearsing with Angie, Alemay, Fareeq & Jun Kai alone. It's a first time I felt so intimidated, like if i were to make a mistake, i'm gonna go down! It's very fearful to rehears with a professional group. In TAS YV, at least i've more experience and able to guide people. But at today's rehearsal, i kinda felt i was under scrutiny, like i was so so so small and weak and insignificant! Eeeks. But i guess i need more exposure to work with professionals to upgrade myself, so i won't feel so useless!Met up with my childhood friend, Sharina and her mom (also my mom's childhood friend). My Mom knew her Mom (Salma) since THEY WERE 6 YEARS OLD, NEIGHBOURS. How cool is that!? And they still keep in contact. I knew Sharina since I was a baby, and we've basically played together in our cribs la! Haha.. She was just born 1 month after i was born, our mothers were pregnant at the same time! Haha! Now where can you find such a friend? It's bloody rare.
She and her mom left for the states to be with her dad 8-9 years ago.
She's a pretty, young lady, elegant, knows her values even though she's half-caucasian (no offense to any caucasians! haha!). Very polite and respectful. Nice girl.
Both our mom's were (jokingly - i hope) suggesting they be in-laws since we were babies! LOL! Not gonna happen!
We met up and after a few 30mins we went to a restaurant for lunch and stuff. Had to follow our parents around for some shopping and had some small talk; trying to strike up good conversations and stuff. Then our parents ditched us and asked us to go walk on our own, so i brought her to teenage-shopping paradise - The Heeren. Showed her around with my sister tagging along. Had some nice conversations and were very comfortable with each other, almost like we've known each other for a long time (we have, literally. but that's besides the point. Haha!). It's like we just picked up where we left off. Real cool.
- Jho. Sleep. Stressful gig. Swim meet. (Noticed i did not talk about school or work? Yeah!)
Friday, June 17, 2005
Stuff stuff stuff
Recap
1 :. Temasek Seminar: Site visit
2 :. Wings Athletic Meet
3 :. Gig at Tiong Bahru Plaza
4 :. Lunch with Ramy, Tat, Jeremy Ho, Chua & Angie, then singing session with John.
5 :. Track Camp
<1> Joke.
[On the naval ship LST]
Officer: If you look behind you, the thing on the 2nd level is the ship's gun.
Jade: Where?
Marrisa: There. Behind you.
Jade: Huh? You mean the thing that looks like a gun is actually a gun?!
Marrisa & Me: =.= Duh!
Jade: What! I thought it was a pipe la...
<2>
It was actually really cool to see such an event. Got the free t-shirt because i helped ^_^
Met the 3505 Jade at the meet also. She was not throwing that day, just there for support i guess. It was really nice to see her again ~ : )
WINGS ended late. So i walked up to the mrt. The sign-board displayed "4mins" for about 5mins without changing. So fed up la, and they did not announce anything. So i went down an asked the people in charge. The announcement then came after i went up to the platform again that it will be delayed. I'm such a bitch!
<3>
It was one of the better gigs i say! Though Gerrie wasn't able to sing with us, but we sounded fine. Facial expressions and emoting was much better that day, though some of us still needed work. The sound systems sucked though. It's always the case, when we sing well, we get shit sound (sibilant alliteration/assonance - haha)! Show some competence Arts Fest handlers!
The primary school kids we quite lost coz the monitors were turned off. But they were still cute. Hee...
<4>
Ramy ramy... Hmmmm... I hope he's straight. So angie has a good chance for grabbing an ABC, he has such a typical American accent! Haha! Seems like a nice guy though. Did not speak to him much, he was sitting at the other corner of the table and i was late (as usual) due to track in the morning. Had a good amount of conversation with Tat tong though. Nice guy. Singapore A Cappella is lucky to have him back, sound recording and mixing, his forte. I'm sorry for the undeliberate spitting on your hand, just that sometimes Chua can be hilarious in a serious way. LOL!
Chua and Angie had singing lessons with John Lee (the local singer Dick Lee's brother - they only look alike at certain angles). Their house is HUGE! Long pool, about 50metres, 3 storeys, GREAT SCENERY! It's so inpiring! Makes you wana earn sooo much money and buy such a house ya know? Some people are just lucky to have met witha pot of gold i guess...
<5>
One word: ACHE!
Brief run up of events.
Wed:
Train at Woodlands, 300m sprint X 3 after lots and lots of Ms Lee's drills and managed to clock a much better time than one of my earlier timing. Great! ^_^ Then we had our normal bread and drinks brought by Mr Wong and we went for lunch at Vista point. The food was actually good. Bought drinks and the kids' biscuit - i finally knew what was it called: ICE GEM.
Went back to IJ, then we had our study time - most of us fell asleep though. and Ming Bang, Jade, Izyan were all munching on ice gems, who knew such a cheap and inferior good can bring such satisfaction. Then it was the "Easy run" in the late afternoon. Sprinters 30mins, Distance peeps 1hour. Mr Chen wasn't there to push us though, so our pace was actually quite slow - it was infact an EASY run compared to the one we are gonna have the next day.
Thurs:
My Calves ache like hell!!! Probably not used to doing distance running anymore, so a sudden start created all this problems. Shit, i need to do mileage.
Morning at Woodlands. Did the pyramid (80, 100, 110,110, 100, 80m). And all the drills of course. Then we had our breakfast the the track and head back to IJ for talk on mental skills, biological factors for different engery systems.
Remember PPTT: Physiological, Pschological, Techincal, Tactical (someone said, Tai Kou - Hilarious la!). It was quite useful actually. The of course study time then followed by a estimated 7 km run. This one Mr Chen paced us. Shiong ah! And my calves were aching so bad that i had to stop a few times before I continued.
Took a bath then it was dinner time!. Pizza hut! Yum... Then we went on to watch Chariots of Fire - a movie which inspired Mr Wong to get his christian name Eric. It was an old movie but was actually nice. ^_^ Then a break and we went on to watch COACH CARTER! Great movie. Quote, " they are Student Athletes. 'Student' comes first" , "give me 500 suicides & 500 push-ups".. We were joking about it all morning today.
Everyone was still aching and the "deep-heat" muscle ache cream was passed around like all the time.
Then we head up to the dance studio for our night's rest. Supposed to have lights out by 2230, but Coach Carter was too cool to be missed. So we had lights out at 0030, technically. We stayed up for sometime and told ghost stories and tried to scare one another. The 6 boys were actually so scared that we, orginally placed out things at different corners of the large room, actually gathered to one corner and slept together, for the fear of our own ghost stories. WE'RE SUCH LOSERS LA! Lol.. So in the end, we slept at 0116. It was really fun!
Friday:
Muscle ache!
Training morning. Did relay passing today at CCK stadium which supposed to be exclusively ours, but at the end of the day, so many schools were there training - Raffles, Cedar, Cat high, Hwa Chong. So bloody irritating. But it was all well. We are still tending to our injuries and aches, but it was actually fun. The aches are worth the camp. So here ends Track Camp.
- Jho. Ache. Rehearsal. Father's day dinner. Ache-relieve cream.
1 :. Temasek Seminar: Site visit
2 :. Wings Athletic Meet
3 :. Gig at Tiong Bahru Plaza
4 :. Lunch with Ramy, Tat, Jeremy Ho, Chua & Angie, then singing session with John.
5 :. Track Camp
<1> Joke.
[On the naval ship LST]
Officer: If you look behind you, the thing on the 2nd level is the ship's gun.
Jade: Where?
Marrisa: There. Behind you.
Jade: Huh? You mean the thing that looks like a gun is actually a gun?!
Marrisa & Me: =.= Duh!
Jade: What! I thought it was a pipe la...
<2>
It was actually really cool to see such an event. Got the free t-shirt because i helped ^_^
Met the 3505 Jade at the meet also. She was not throwing that day, just there for support i guess. It was really nice to see her again ~ : )
WINGS ended late. So i walked up to the mrt. The sign-board displayed "4mins" for about 5mins without changing. So fed up la, and they did not announce anything. So i went down an asked the people in charge. The announcement then came after i went up to the platform again that it will be delayed. I'm such a bitch!
<3>
It was one of the better gigs i say! Though Gerrie wasn't able to sing with us, but we sounded fine. Facial expressions and emoting was much better that day, though some of us still needed work. The sound systems sucked though. It's always the case, when we sing well, we get shit sound (sibilant alliteration/assonance - haha)! Show some competence Arts Fest handlers!
The primary school kids we quite lost coz the monitors were turned off. But they were still cute. Hee...
<4>
Ramy ramy... Hmmmm... I hope he's straight. So angie has a good chance for grabbing an ABC, he has such a typical American accent! Haha! Seems like a nice guy though. Did not speak to him much, he was sitting at the other corner of the table and i was late (as usual) due to track in the morning. Had a good amount of conversation with Tat tong though. Nice guy. Singapore A Cappella is lucky to have him back, sound recording and mixing, his forte. I'm sorry for the undeliberate spitting on your hand, just that sometimes Chua can be hilarious in a serious way. LOL!
Chua and Angie had singing lessons with John Lee (the local singer Dick Lee's brother - they only look alike at certain angles). Their house is HUGE! Long pool, about 50metres, 3 storeys, GREAT SCENERY! It's so inpiring! Makes you wana earn sooo much money and buy such a house ya know? Some people are just lucky to have met witha pot of gold i guess...
<5>
One word: ACHE!
Brief run up of events.
Wed:
Train at Woodlands, 300m sprint X 3 after lots and lots of Ms Lee's drills and managed to clock a much better time than one of my earlier timing. Great! ^_^ Then we had our normal bread and drinks brought by Mr Wong and we went for lunch at Vista point. The food was actually good. Bought drinks and the kids' biscuit - i finally knew what was it called: ICE GEM.
Went back to IJ, then we had our study time - most of us fell asleep though. and Ming Bang, Jade, Izyan were all munching on ice gems, who knew such a cheap and inferior good can bring such satisfaction. Then it was the "Easy run" in the late afternoon. Sprinters 30mins, Distance peeps 1hour. Mr Chen wasn't there to push us though, so our pace was actually quite slow - it was infact an EASY run compared to the one we are gonna have the next day.
Thurs:
My Calves ache like hell!!! Probably not used to doing distance running anymore, so a sudden start created all this problems. Shit, i need to do mileage.
Morning at Woodlands. Did the pyramid (80, 100, 110,110, 100, 80m). And all the drills of course. Then we had our breakfast the the track and head back to IJ for talk on mental skills, biological factors for different engery systems.
Remember PPTT: Physiological, Pschological, Techincal, Tactical (someone said, Tai Kou - Hilarious la!). It was quite useful actually. The of course study time then followed by a estimated 7 km run. This one Mr Chen paced us. Shiong ah! And my calves were aching so bad that i had to stop a few times before I continued.
Took a bath then it was dinner time!. Pizza hut! Yum... Then we went on to watch Chariots of Fire - a movie which inspired Mr Wong to get his christian name Eric. It was an old movie but was actually nice. ^_^ Then a break and we went on to watch COACH CARTER! Great movie. Quote, " they are Student Athletes. 'Student' comes first" , "give me 500 suicides & 500 push-ups".. We were joking about it all morning today.
Everyone was still aching and the "deep-heat" muscle ache cream was passed around like all the time.
Then we head up to the dance studio for our night's rest. Supposed to have lights out by 2230, but Coach Carter was too cool to be missed. So we had lights out at 0030, technically. We stayed up for sometime and told ghost stories and tried to scare one another. The 6 boys were actually so scared that we, orginally placed out things at different corners of the large room, actually gathered to one corner and slept together, for the fear of our own ghost stories. WE'RE SUCH LOSERS LA! Lol.. So in the end, we slept at 0116. It was really fun!
Friday:
Muscle ache!
Training morning. Did relay passing today at CCK stadium which supposed to be exclusively ours, but at the end of the day, so many schools were there training - Raffles, Cedar, Cat high, Hwa Chong. So bloody irritating. But it was all well. We are still tending to our injuries and aches, but it was actually fun. The aches are worth the camp. So here ends Track Camp.
- Jho. Ache. Rehearsal. Father's day dinner. Ache-relieve cream.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Yeah!
Yeah!
The person actually initiated an MSN convo with me! Whoohoo~ I thought i was being ignored! I know i know... you guys must be thinking, " WTF! L O S E R, what does that say? Looooser!" But hey, i'm such a love fool - always yearning for the simple yet romantic and meaningful things in life.
Life goes on
I finally got back to the gym today. What a sense of accomplishment! Going tomorrow morn again before William Blake's make-up lesson and rehearsals ALL THE WAY at Pasir Ris Primary - Goodness me! *Random Thought: Nice song on Class 95 now. The Corrs - All the love in the world*
That reminds me. I gotta practice my DJ-hosting voice. "Good morning Innova! How's everyone doin' today? Alright then, let's move on to the next dedication by..... requesting for a song to go out to all innovians wishing them good luck and live happy! I think i shall take that advice for myself. Haha. So here's The Corrs with All the love in the world... *music plays* "
-Jho. Sleep. Gym. Lesson. Rehearsal. The OC!
Monday, May 30, 2005
Here it comes, i'm back!
L I F E - In general
Wow.. Finally I have the time to blog!
It's the holidays now. Well, not much of one anyway - most of it is probably spent mugging for Summer Test.
I've just been on a whirlwind of book notes and work - don't even get me started.
Example of how i've become obsessed with studying and turned into one of those people i hate with no life include: "I feel like studying. I think i'll SKIP GYM" ! Woah!
My wish would be that the holidays would rejuvinate me for a fresh Semester. Or else, i'd die of before the end of the year.
T I M E
Time just whizzed passed don't you think? It just flew past. Really. It did. Like Whooow. So fast. So quick. Zoom. It not only flew, but flew really fast. Totally. Supersonic fast. Flash fast. Almost like lightning speed. Wow!
Now, a day in school till 2 is the earliest LESSONS end, and it's like a really really short day. An hour period seems to end so quickly (except in Chinese la).
I miss my 3505 friends. The current class i have, though very nice people in general, just don't seem to have the bond in 3505. Why? What made us tick? Could it be b'coz we're not really into studying during first 3 months, thus more time for socialising and friendship?
C O L L E G E
Am training in Track as usual. But now, volleyball is open for newcomers! Shit! But that would mean i have to drop track (which i have already heavily invested on) to go join volleyball and start afresh! Double Shit! Plus if i don't drop Track, i have Track + Volleyball + Broadcasting (DJ Branch)! Triple Shit!
Studies wise - I am dying in Econs Long Run Cost of Production. Bloody shit, they took soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long in Short Run and Elasticity and expect us to go fuck ourselves for Long Run and do essay questions on that topic. The audacity! Pardon my crudity, I need to express my upmost angst against the way IJ does their econs syllabus. Lit - I am starting to pass, hope i can do well for Summer Test. Geog is pretty normal i guess. I failed my MT class test 35/100. Haha! And "AO" Chinese Oral is up 1st July! Eeeks!
F R I E N D S
Soooo bloody difficult to keep in touch these days. It's either Jess & Yt not free or vice versa. And to have a decent heart to heart conversation with them, woah - in mandarin " nan shang jia nan"! More so for Jessica i guess, i mean, she has a bf afterall and that's really cool. It doesn't help that her Bf is my best friend too.. I'm soooo sandwiched! haha! Thank god i have Huang, who cannot be bothered about the complexities in life. Until someone points out blatantly to her that an apple is red, she will see it as colourless... *whistles*
Haoren and I seems to be getting on well enough... Quite buddy buddy now - I have you are reading this! ^_^ J Chua (My god bro) also, starting to progress into less bitching about each other and more cooperation *pause for a cause* somewhat. Hahaha!
Ray on the other hand, seems distant... I dunno if it's the educational disparity or what not. It's just slightly (when i say slightly, i do mean alot) different now than it used to be. The fact that i would dare to say this in my blog shows that i am banking on him not reading this.
I don't know if i should say this, but it's no harm i guess to voice out my liking for this particular person. This person is in another JC right now. We used to be good friends, but now seem to be distant. I want to keep the friendship, but i think the yearning for the bond have evolved into a crush (at least i know i'm a human being capable of crushes and not a heartless mugger). Symmetrical features, tanned skin, toned body. Ooooooo...
S I N G I N G
Thank heavens I have A Cappella rehearsals to break the monotony of life! Though some rehearsals turned out pretty bad. But things turned for the better afterall. Performances dates - Check the Singapore Arts Festival brochure ^_^
Life goes on i guess. Take a step at a time and go with the flow.
-Jho. Gavin DeGraw-Chariot A Must Buy!
Wow.. Finally I have the time to blog!
It's the holidays now. Well, not much of one anyway - most of it is probably spent mugging for Summer Test.
I've just been on a whirlwind of book notes and work - don't even get me started.
Example of how i've become obsessed with studying and turned into one of those people i hate with no life include: "I feel like studying. I think i'll SKIP GYM" ! Woah!
My wish would be that the holidays would rejuvinate me for a fresh Semester. Or else, i'd die of before the end of the year.
T I M E
Time just whizzed passed don't you think? It just flew past. Really. It did. Like Whooow. So fast. So quick. Zoom. It not only flew, but flew really fast. Totally. Supersonic fast. Flash fast. Almost like lightning speed. Wow!
Now, a day in school till 2 is the earliest LESSONS end, and it's like a really really short day. An hour period seems to end so quickly (except in Chinese la).
I miss my 3505 friends. The current class i have, though very nice people in general, just don't seem to have the bond in 3505. Why? What made us tick? Could it be b'coz we're not really into studying during first 3 months, thus more time for socialising and friendship?
C O L L E G E
Am training in Track as usual. But now, volleyball is open for newcomers! Shit! But that would mean i have to drop track (which i have already heavily invested on) to go join volleyball and start afresh! Double Shit! Plus if i don't drop Track, i have Track + Volleyball + Broadcasting (DJ Branch)! Triple Shit!
Studies wise - I am dying in Econs Long Run Cost of Production. Bloody shit, they took soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long in Short Run and Elasticity and expect us to go fuck ourselves for Long Run and do essay questions on that topic. The audacity! Pardon my crudity, I need to express my upmost angst against the way IJ does their econs syllabus. Lit - I am starting to pass, hope i can do well for Summer Test. Geog is pretty normal i guess. I failed my MT class test 35/100. Haha! And "AO" Chinese Oral is up 1st July! Eeeks!
F R I E N D S
Soooo bloody difficult to keep in touch these days. It's either Jess & Yt not free or vice versa. And to have a decent heart to heart conversation with them, woah - in mandarin " nan shang jia nan"! More so for Jessica i guess, i mean, she has a bf afterall and that's really cool. It doesn't help that her Bf is my best friend too.. I'm soooo sandwiched! haha! Thank god i have Huang, who cannot be bothered about the complexities in life. Until someone points out blatantly to her that an apple is red, she will see it as colourless... *whistles*
Haoren and I seems to be getting on well enough... Quite buddy buddy now - I have you are reading this! ^_^ J Chua (My god bro) also, starting to progress into less bitching about each other and more cooperation *pause for a cause* somewhat. Hahaha!
Ray on the other hand, seems distant... I dunno if it's the educational disparity or what not. It's just slightly (when i say slightly, i do mean alot) different now than it used to be. The fact that i would dare to say this in my blog shows that i am banking on him not reading this.
I don't know if i should say this, but it's no harm i guess to voice out my liking for this particular person. This person is in another JC right now. We used to be good friends, but now seem to be distant. I want to keep the friendship, but i think the yearning for the bond have evolved into a crush (at least i know i'm a human being capable of crushes and not a heartless mugger). Symmetrical features, tanned skin, toned body. Ooooooo...
S I N G I N G
Thank heavens I have A Cappella rehearsals to break the monotony of life! Though some rehearsals turned out pretty bad. But things turned for the better afterall. Performances dates - Check the Singapore Arts Festival brochure ^_^
Life goes on i guess. Take a step at a time and go with the flow.
-Jho. Gavin DeGraw-Chariot A Must Buy!
Monday, April 25, 2005
Again
C o l l e g e
Joined Track and Field - am gonna train for sprints and long jump; this equates to 5 periods of PE per week (3 track - extreme training, 2 PE)! I don't know if i should go for vball also, it's my passion to play vball i think. Wanted to play it well since when i was a child, but never the opportune moment.Homework is as usual, nothing special.. The normal drills bla bla bla... I have to point out something though - My econs tutorial group sucks! Nobody dares to say anything and ask any questions! Unlike my wonderful 3505 of 3 months...
My geog teacher pulled me and my classmate (Ahmad) aside and asked us to represent the supposedly prestigious Temasek Seminar on National Defence (we actually get to voice our opinions to defence minister Dr. Tony Tan - i think). Good for my portfolio : D
S o c i a l L i f e
I have no social life! [P.S. This is coming from a saturday night's point of view] I should be out partying, dancing, watching concerts, movies, going to bars, flirting, flirting, flirting... Instead i'm stuck at home doing bloody PC for William Blake. JC life lor... So leychey one..What's worst, i think it was last last satuday or so. BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD BAD Date! The conversation was as dry as the sand in the Sahara la! No spark.. We ended up talking about bloody politics and S'pore's governance over the Swiss' one and my knowledge of Switzerland through social studies [P.S. This is a Swiss-german]. That is the highlight of my evening! How pathetic is it!?
Alright. Off to College!
-Jho
Track ~ Janet Jackson - Again
Saturday, April 16, 2005
It rocked!
'Tis good to best friends meet.
Movies by the way we sought-
Dirty dancing and Honey
With mini picnic.
With mini picnic.
Fun was all it was!
"Raped" by Jessica was I; the pinching and touching of nipples, chest, thighs, clothes
"Raped" by Jessica was I; the pinching and touching of nipples, chest, thighs, clothes
Was thy grossed.
Irritated by Yanting with she repetitive lines; - dirty dancing script
Memorised has she,
repeats and tells us
lines of the actors.
Irritation.
Time was great.
More shall we do it; more bonds we shall [Exits Jeremy]
Enters Jeremy
Lecture silly - econs
No 30mins Air-con
Enters Jeremy
Lecture silly - econs
No 30mins Air-con
LT Doors were opened
Damm'd ye Econs tutor!
Hatred
Is one's describe
Mrs Koh is Better; much.
Othello - First tutorial
Fetish with stylized writing is obviously shown.
Thy thought Joining track,
Thy thought Joining track,
Thy should?
Uniform revealed (brown) - Lighter than JJ and NY, darker than VJ. Go figure
-[Jho exits]
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