Naked

Wow.. It's been almost two months. Gosh.

Just finished my Literature essay on the book "The Guide" by R.K. Narayan.

Felt like blogging my feelings.

- "Naked" by Spice Girls (Their first album) playing on my notebook -

It's a new notebook.. Hp Pavillion Entertainment Notebook PC. Quite cool. Never had a notebook before and realised it's darn useful and mobile! I can do work any where, so efficient!

Just watched Macbeth at the DBS Arts centre: Home of SRT. Quite cool. Imagine, memorising lines and lines of Shakspeare! And we students can't even quote from the text during an exam. Haha.

There's college tomorrow. First they tell us we are celebrating for an hour, i thought "hey! I can go back home by 9!" then they tell us after the celebration is a full college hours. Ok fine. I "ren".

Now my friends tell me we have extra Econs lecture remedial till 6:15pm. Ok. Innova JC is gonna top the JC cohort soon at this rate. LOL! Wishful thinking on my part...

I don't know what is wrong with this world. It always seems like you cannot have both, it's always either or. If i do not have dates AT ALL, my ("best") friends are closer to me, but if i have a few dates popping out here and there, they seem so distant. Although it's a non sequitor (no relevance), but it always seems to work out that way.. Why?

I remember Ms Beh, my upper sec form teacher said to us, "It's your secondary school friends that stay with you for life"... How true is that? I really wonder. I mean seriously, in my current state, i guess not.

I have to admit, it's partly my fault for being oversensitive. But can you blame me? Ok, i'll stop ranting. I just needed to get it out of my system. Being indifferent hurts, not caring hurts, but i think that's the best way for now - since trying too hard and getting rejected hurts much much more.

I ardently believe in balance. Everything needs to have a balance.

Nigel and Allan visited. Had a really nice time! Though my puntuality is a major issue and will probably be awhile before i learn my lesson. I probably need a huge jolt to truly learn lessons - like my English Grade in the "O" Levels.

Maybe i should go get some serious reflection. Are my priorities right? I don't know.
I have always had answers to other people's problems, but never my own. Gosh...

I'm feeling naked. Like i have no flesh. No tangibility. I'm feeling numb. Is that what Jeremy Ho has become? I could care less for incompetence, probably that is why i feel so small all the time; since i pitch myself against the best or the better ALL the time.

But

It's not just that. It's about feeling wholesome. I thought i got over my teenage insecurities. Hmmmm.... Or maybe i'm again a late bloomer and here comes my insercurities for real. I would not call them insecurities though. I'm perfectly sercure, just unsure.

I miss AJ.. Had sooo much fun and learnt so much. Sad that the good teachers are leaving though. Well, IJ is getting more beautiful by the day. I can't wait to use the facilities!

Maybe I should get a larger circle of friends. Then we can go clubbin', dancin' etc etc. A close knit group of friends may not be such a boon afterall.

Ok. National Day is here. Singapore's 40th birthday. Ya know, i'd never give up my citizenship for any country in the world. I guess i'm just very "kampong"... I like singapore. I like that i can walk at the void decks of HDB flats barefooted. Take a walk down the streets in the night and not get mugged.

Brb. I'll go to the toilet.

Yup! I love my country.

Anyways. There's an upcoming A Cappella concert!

A Cappella Fest 2005

8th September

7:30pm

Kallang Theatre

Tickets $16 - Students, $24/$26 Adults (I Think)

My A Cappella group TONE will be performing about 3 songs! Do come support the local groups! I promise it will be a sensational evening of songs!

Sleep time!

Jho - Sleep. College. National Day "break".