Caught 22

Yet another year has past
Yet so different from the last.

Searching for myself always
Finding myself in new ways.

Coupled previously
Single, deliberately.

Where's life taking me?
Wherever my heart may be.

What a year it has been. It's your sophomore year now Jeremy. And you have outdone yourself again. Seeing your wishlist getting striked off one by one, you know you have drive. Seriously babe, i'm proud of who you have become. Your teenage self will look up to you with respect. But keep in mind you have a long way more to go. So many more goals. So much more successes to chase.

Remember to open your heart. Remember to let loved ones in. You and I both know that's the only way to true happiness - surrounded by people you love. Material success is lonely without persons to share it with. Love is not all, but it rounds everything most beautifully. You can't live on love, but you'll starve without it.

I sense that the coming year is for self-discovery. To define who you are. To push your limits, north, south, east, west. It's time for you to catch 22.

I wish you a bountiful journey. Bon courage et je t'aime, Jeremy.

Draining Vices

Amidst the glitz & glamour,

Amidst the friends & constant laughter,

Amidst the new circles and glasses clinking,

Amidst the uprising fame & singing,

Is a constant Pang, once the mist is gone.

Of uncertainty, of escapism brought down and of change.

It's a post-mist depression, a W-shaped plot-line.

Vices take me. I should fight back. Yet i'm

Drained

Today is the 18th of September

exactly 4 and a half years from March 18th 2006.

Mourn the end of an era.

Burn. Heart. Aches.

Rains. Eyes. Soulless.

Chances are choices.

Have a little faith, dream

A little dream, breathe

A little while, take

A journey...

Yet, value what's lost, hold

A little closer, cherish

A little more, feel

Our hearts as one, again.

Chances are, we

Never really know, what

To expect, what

Outcomes revealed, and

That is a risk, and

Those are my choices.

-jho.

E-piphany on the train ride home

I just had an ephiphany. Why are people in Singapore (and i don't mean just Singapore citizens) rushing into the train all the time? They don't let the existing train passengers alight first and prefer to barge their way into the train.

Reason 1: Yes, Kiasu-ism. [*note to foreigners: google the term]. The 'die die must win', cannot lose attitude that all Singaporeans have. But it's beyond that!

It's because...

Reason 2: The Singapore population is lazy! Just plain L A Z Y. I have noticed time and time again, the same people standing lip-locked with the train entrance are the ones dashing for the next available seat to plaster their tefal-flat bums on.

Think about it. We have trains that ferry u across a distance which only takes a 20mins walk. We'd rather wait 2mins for a lift than walk up 2 flights of stairs. When was the last time u saw someone voluntarily choose the stairs nearby when the oh-so-ergonomic escalators 10metres away are empty?

Reason 3: Herd mentality. If others are doing it, I'll do it also lah.

Even if one's Not kiasu or lazy, if u have herd mentality: (sub-consciously) Aiya, since everyone already like that lazy and kiasu, I also follow lor.

It's a vicious cycle!

I used to have issues about such mentalities and it irked the hell out of me. Not anymore! Call it apathy with age ;)

[Help Me!] However, when a rather large woman slightly shorter than I am starts unprovokedly caressing your upper back with her E-cups and you suddenly wonder when did OSIM & SMRT tie up for a standing unit massage chair, you begin to ponder about the close encounters.

You know i'm only writing this blogpost now on the train to occupy myself with my random intellect. Anything to distract me (omg, seriously) from thinking she might enjoy her evening-shift as a massage fixture on the singapore trains.

BeWITCHed, (certainly) Bothered & Bewildered,

-jho.

要不要(Yao Bu Yao) by Vocaluptuous

Don't know why, i'm just obsessed with this song and the arrangement! Gosh. Call me a groupie.