Flirt-Dancing. The One.

Flirt Dancing.
verb: to indulge in a seductive dance or movements leading to portray flirtatious gestures of attraction.
-Jeremy Ho's dictionary of the Urban Student

Went to the Madonna: Confessions on the Dancefloor launch party the other night with JunKai. 'twas quite fun - premiere of Madonna's lastest Video "Hung Up" and had a few breakdancers performing to Madonna Remixes.

Managed to catch Desiree - the TV series Heartlander's female lead - and Randall (i think that is his name) doing the emceeing. Desiree is actually only about my height! But she looks sooo tall on TV.

After the launch, the crowd gradually resumed the usual clubbin' ambiance.

I had 4.5 drinks in total - Barcardi Breezer, Margarita, A (damm strong but sweet) Shot in a syringe, Vodka lime, half a Gin. Was, of course, very drunk after that.

Headed for some sleek dancing and flirting on the dancefloor. Was soooo drunk that actually flirt-danced with quite a few people.

I danced and danced and danced so much that suddenly, someone came up to me and started to flirt-dance as well.

The action between us started to to get a tad bit heavy.
We were physically immersed into each other,
The dance floor literally, somehow, left a bigger space for us.
Hands all over each other's bodies,
Butts and hips shook like nobody's business,
There's rubbing,
Some groping etc etc etc etc..

And the worst thing is, that person is a stranger! Totally un-accquaintated.
There was some exchange of compliments and the accent sounds a tad bit hispanic or latin.

I have to admit.. I really really enjoyed the flirt-dance which lasted about a good 20-30mins. Can't really tell, was dead drunk. Yet, I am also guilty and embarrassed about how slutty I can be.. Gosh! I feel like such ass.. An ass that enjoyed being an ass for 20-30mins. Arrrggghhhh!

How can "something so bad feel so good"?

Now I know not to drink so much, I probably can't hold my alcohol very well..
But a part of me wants for this sort of action to happen again the next time I visit a club. I am embarrased by having this thought as well.

I guess I am attractive afterall! Somebody actually wants me physically! Haha! Although, it ain't exactly my type of fantasy, but at least there is one person out there who is interested in me PHYSICALLY only; I bet the flirt-dance ain't about looking for an intellectual exchange with politics and literature involved right? Lol! I am physically attractive! Yeah! 5 points for my Self Esteem!

- Jho. Sleep. Read. Rollerblade in the morning. Gig @ Wisma.

P.S. Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire is actually a very nice movie, much to my surprize..

Angstful delivery

If someone is hurting you really badly, should you wait?

Everyone and thing seems to be on the "Irritate Jeremy" or "Hurt Jeremy" streak nowadays..
A potential date, a "best" friend, Promo grades.
But if everyone is doing it, then could it be me instead?
Am I the problem?

Is it wrong to want a friendship so beautiful that nobody can break it? Not even boyfriends, or girlfriends or families or distance or natural disasters? Is that too much of an ideal?
I used to have such friends, or maybe i thought I had them.. I think i still have ONE such friend. Or maybe not.

Maybe I was so deluded that I had the perfect friendship in the past that now, this subjectively "little" flaw is blowing up into a big deal..

Maybe YOU don't want to be my friend anymore. - Ok that previous sentence sounded something a Primary school kid would say - But it can be true.

Maybe it's your family that is preventing you from being my friend? Religion? Your boyfriend?
Or is it me? Am I too judgemental that you don't want me to be included in your life?
Or are you just too horny and jaded that you only concentrate on your boyfriend?
'Cos I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE to believe it is because of "clashing schedules" that we cannot stay in contact. Unless you are that lousy and organiser or lousy a friend. In which, that case, you are not worth it. Not worth my effort.
Even though this may sound egotistical, but I am worth much more than such measly treatment. If this is how you treat your friends. Then i'm sorry to tell you honey, you ain't getting far in this world.

Why should it be weird for you to SMS me to tell me about your life? Why should it be weird for me to do the same? Why would it be weird for us to call and talk nonsense?

But lets be fair to you. Perhaps you have your reasons. If only you would tell me and stop being so wishy washy. And I can decide on whether to concentrate on whether to pursue the friendship or not.. Don't leave me hanging there.. Just tell me the bare facts.

Yes. I have heard of selfless love.. But, this ain't worth my effort.

Bad enough my "best friend" wished me Happy Birthday 30mins before the day ended. I thought you were overseas with reception problems. Or perhaps you were planning a surprize party or even a gathering that you didn't want me to know about. But to no avail. You were with family the entire day. And that is the reason why you wished me at 2330 on 14th oct. A simple sms. I'm not worth the effort?

Send me an email. Send me a letter. Tell me what the fucking problem is... Coz i still REFUSE to believe it is because of schedule clashes that you can't even wish your friend, much more supposed best friend, an early Happy Birthday.

If that is the case, then, really.. I have nothing to say anymore. Really nothing.. Then you are not worth it. Then I have wasted my time with you.
Then I have wasted time telling my dates that I have two best friends that care and love me.



Then I am deluded.