Time. Emotions. Priorities

Time is a funny thing. Especially when I'm a young man living in my light years.

Time whizzes past so quickly these days.
And the funny thing about time is that when you need it the most, you get the least.

Diving has been awesome. Met tonnes of new people, had tonnes of laughs, relaxing holiday overall. And of course, fabulous company!

Time is also filled with expectations. When you expect you would get something in a period of time and if it just goes by, you cannot ever get it back and it's sad to see it go.

Sometimes I wonder how people can remain in relationships with such a lack of time in their hands. Time devoted to work, studies, commitments outside of a relationship seems to be taking precedence at times. And it it such times that you feel that a relationship is really such a chore.

Maybe i'm in an emotional state right now, but this question has been popping back into my mind recently: Won't it be sooo much easier if one were to be single than in a relationship during periods where time is short? How wonderful would it be if human beings were to be able to turn emotions on and off. E.g. if time were short, just switch emotions OFF and stay single for that busy period till we're once free again to resume loving someone.

I'm blaming time and fate. Maybe fate is causing obstacles to obstruct the growth of the relationship or maybe it's a test. I don't know. But whatever it is, it's irritating the hell out of me.

15+2 days we cannot be together now. And on the 18th day, it's not even a good whole full day. After the weekend, we do not see each other for a whole month and a few days again. wtf.

Wouldn't it be great if we could just shut off emotions for a while?

Some people are just not meant to have relationships. Coz they have relationships with other things in their lives.

Priorities: Some place romance over work, relationships over work. Some place work over relationships and over personal life. Some place their dogs over their partners. Some even place electronics over human interactions.

Hence, some people may just not be cut out for work/relationships/personal lives/partners/human interactions. Maybe that's how the way things are.

Sounds extreme? Yes. It's a simplification. But I may believe that how we craft our lives to suit our lifestyle is an art by itself.

If one knows:
- priorities stay with work, don't pursue a relationship.
- priorities stay with relationships, dont pursue time consuming work
- priorities stay with electronics/games, don't presume human interaction.

Sometimes, it's easier to do either or instead of juggling both.

Hmmm....

-jho. sleep. nurse illness.