Dumber by the day.

This is ridiculous.

I can't converse in full complex sentences nowadays without tripping on my words.
My vocabulory is dwindling and because of my effort to try and dig up complex words to express myself, I stumble on my grammar too!

This is ridiculous!

I have not written a full length academic or journalistic essay for as long as I remember. To be accurate, my A Levels were about TWO freaking years ago! Gosh! That's quite scary.

This is ridiculous!!

But the worst is I cannot bring myself to write a piece. I'm so unmotivated by my dormant linguistic ability.
Where are all my acronyms and my fluent oral expressions?! (no puns here.)

This is frustrating!

Pre-

Radio tuned to Lush 99.5, oversoaked cereal on my left, the sun blazing through my window on a misty day.

It's pre- work and pre- official vacation day!

I'm still sick. Can barely croak an octave; still have to sing for work later.
I'm still orally impaired. Can't chew for nuts (or nuts).
Wow... depressing isn't it?

I just hope I can recover from this quick enough. Vienna & Budapest awaits!
I need positive thinking. Positive thinking!

To think, I'm actually going on a holiday with my own capabilities, well, considering the I only agreed to fly if the flights are already paid for (Flyer miles!) - I still can't afford expensive airfare! I'd say it's pretty darn good.

Just dug up old medication and taken whatever prospective pill I can find.. I'm such a druggy.

Luggage 70% packed. Mood: Mellow.

-jho. positive thinking.

Tired.

"I don't wanna fight anymore.."

Simplicity

As you progress in life, do you tend to yearn for simplicity?

As youths, we face a mirage of emotions, a buffet of choices and opportunities, a plethora of ideals and dreams.

Yet I crave to simplify all that. I crave simplicity.
Just like my desire to change my blog skin to something managable. Something blogger provided. No mess, no tag board, no jibberish scribbles.

Life would have been much simpler if I didn't simply crave to practice law.
I would have simply be simplistically contented studying SocialSciences.

It is not that I do not like the socialsciences,
It is that it's difficult to give up a dream you had since you were eight years of age.

Patrick says I'm going to look back, 10 years down the road and realise,
"Why was I wasting so much of my time worrying about this?"

Well. I can't imagine myself saying that now. But hey. That's the reality of it as Youths.
Youths who can't see past a period of their lives.

Who can tell me for sure what they can see themselves doing after they ORD?
Who can tell me for sure what they can see themselves doing after University even?

Not anyone I know.

I'm thankful for many little achievements I have attained throughout the past 1.5 years.

I-SO-TONIC, TONE's Inaugural concert was a success.
I became MDC Vocal Ensemble's Musical i/c - as much as I moan about my job, I do love working with the guys and with TTBB music :)
I opened my eyes to people's toxicity and am glad i'm out of that environment soon.
I have a wonderful partner who has stayed true for more than 2 years.
I have a pool of ex-classmates/friends/colleagues that are always there for me
I have Four singers/close friends whom I love and enjoy being around with.
I can potentially travel for 3 times independently this year - more than I ever had.

Some say i'm lucky as it is to have those things.
But yet, I'm still yearning for that place in Law school - local that is.

Should I just be resigned to facts?
Should I?

ETERNAL QUESTION:
Is life telling me I should fight on, stay resilient, build character or,
Is life directing me to another path?


"I took the road less travelled,
And it made all the difference." - Robert Frost

Guten Nacht.

- jho. "Samantha Who?". sleep.