Been sooo busy with Singing, Trips, CCAs and stuff.. Gosh..
But thought this would be a good way to start off year 2006!
Been out clubbin of course - and for the few times I have been clubbin, somehow, even though I may not be looking to do it purposefully, flirt dancing occurs! Of course that heightens the fun factor and all, but starting to feel quite slutty - especially with my last encounter! It was, how should i put this, much much more seductive and physical... much much much more... LOL.. Worst thing - I was not drunk, at all!
My best friend, Sergeoh, went to Hawaii - lucky ass! All the hot hot hot homosapiens! Haha.. He got me this really nice calendar... Filled with sexy Hawaiians! Ooooo.. And a deck of play cards as well - with pictures of.. well.. you can call it porn. LOL! But it is still a lovely lovely gift! Love you joe! Big Hugs....
I cannot believe it's 2006. Really. I mean, it seems like just yesterday I was in J1! And Now I am (unofficially) 18, and it's my A levels year. Goodness... Time freaking flies! One more year to go and it is National Service. It is really freaky.
It is like, you know yourself and see yourself inside out every day, but do not notice all these changes that are continously present. And until my god parents reccently told me that I have grown taller, I wouldn't have realised it myself. And it seems like everyone whom I have not met a long time ago - like my uncle whom came over today - have told me I have grown taller. And it SEEMS that my school pants have "shortened" as well.. Haha.. We'll see when I get measured in school when it re-opens!
Talking about measuring height, I can still remember my primary school days during height measurements and secondary school days as well... Oh my goodness.. Time just flew pass.. Wow... No wonder they call it the light years. It is freaky, weird, surprizing, astonishing, even scary.
And this year I will turn 18. I can legally smoke, legally drink, legally hit some clubs, legally have sex, legally spit, take drugs, murder, rape.. LOL! I do not think I will be legally considered a Minor anymore as well.. Wow..
I am just in total shock.. serious.
I am just in total shock.. serious.
Shocked because it is a revelation to me. A sudden realisation. It has been creeping up to me slowly since i was very young. Imaging myself to be like one of those "kor kors" that wear hip clothing, go out with a lot of friends, watch movies and have a great time without parents walking beside them. I also remember, how I envied them having cool wallets that they open, taking money or their ATM cards out, putting them on the counters of departmental stores, supermarkets, CD stores. I also remember how I envy those "Kor Kors" going out to macdonalds or KFC without their parents sitting down, having a meal with their friends.
How these hip teenagers had Pagers! (Don't laugh! It was cool then!) I wanted a Pager sooo much - ya know, those Neon coloured Mp3 player looking gadgets that beeps when ppl sent messages through public phones. Mobile phones weren't such a huge deal then. Wow. Technology sure is quick! Seems like this generation of kids (current adolescents younger than 12) are exposed to a whole new lifestyle as compared to mine. This sounds cliched, but I am only 17, well.. unofficially 18, and I see a big difference.
When I was young, playing at the play ground was still my number 1 activity! Climbing the metal bars that was built like a horse's skeletal structure just downstairs of my house. Playing with the sand. Skateboarding and cycling and of course in-line skating. Playing badminton with my maid and sis then. How I used to run around the house with a plastic sword in my hand, hitting my head on the staircase legdes, table tops, high stools falling on my feet. Pretending to use a towel hooked on to my shirt by a clip as a robe in one of those traditional chinese sword-fighting flicks.
I remembered playing catching and hide-and-sneak in school. How I used to not eat save money and instead, played around. Getting all sweaty and dirty before going back to class. Also remembered how I like to disturb girls in my class.. Tease them.. Taking their stuff and pulling their hair etc etc.. Remembered how running 1.6Km was such a chore to me.. Now it's just running.. haha.. Funny how certain values, figures, scales and the value placed on those figures change as you grow up. Just like currency and money.
2dollars was a huge huge sum to me when I was a kid. How I used to treasure every 10cent coin with my life - after all 20 X 10cents = $2! I remember, once when I was 10, i lost my wallet. In it had $16. I still remember holding back my tears when walking home from school, and ultimately crying like an idiot on my parents' bed against a pillow; remembered how I scrimped and saved every cent and dollar to keep $16 and putting it in my, then velcro wallet (Hey! It was fashionable then!), trying to feel like one of the "kor kors".
Silly, but intimately real.
And now.. I am one of those "Kor Kors"... It is weird - weird because the memories are so vividly and deeply embedded in my mind as if they were just yesterday..
A New College year. An intimidating one. It seems like a huge ordeal for the most obvious reason. Don't know how am I going to tackle it as yet... And if my 17 years of living have served me well, especially the past 3, I know for a fact that this year will be even quicker then the rest...
This is scary. Real scary.
-Jho 2006. Sleep. Rest. Gym. College.
